The Internship || Kim Namjoon Fanfiction

The Internship || Chapter 9: The Lie

One tear escaped my eye that night. And i sat at my appartment all weekend thinking why.
Not why i cried, but why was it the only one? Were there supposed to be more? I don't know... i am so lost and confused i honasly don't know what to do or how am i going to show my face at the office knowing that Taehyung probably told everyone about this.

I know i have to do this. There is no running away and i have to face it. I got myself into it by a lie, and so be it.

Without any will, i rolled out of bed this monday morning. I acually got hit by my bed but i didn't scream. I just didn't care.
I did my moenibg routine and fot to work. Ji wanted to ask what's wrong but he knew that we would not get an answer.

Like a scared cat, i crowled into the office, trying not to get cought.
"Hey Lucy!"
Oh come on!
Should i turn around or keep walking?
My choice was made in a second, i just kept walking. 'I didn't hear a thing.' I am so close to the elevator i just need to get there.
The voice stopped, good. I rushed to the elevetor and pressed my floor. But a man came inside, that was Jungkook.

"Hey! I called you didn't you hear me?"
"No sorry... i was busy in my thoughts..." i hate to be dishonest, but i really had no choice.
"Are yoi feeling better? You certinely look good." He said examining my face.
"What are you talking about?"
"On friday, you left in the middle and Taehyung told us that you got sick so you went home. Are you sure you're okay?" He said with quite care.
"Last time i checked, i am the doctor Jungkook, and yes i'm better thank you." I laughed at him which he gladly joined me.

So Taehyung didn't tell anyone about what happened. Probably to avoid embarassment.
"Well that's my floor. Bye Lucy!" He was about to leave, but before he did, i quickly said "wait! Would you mind call Taeyung to my office?"
"Is he in trouble?"
Haha... silly kid...
"No haha. He asked me for a cream i need to give him some instructions." I made up. God i just can't stop lying now can't i?
"Okay, i'll tell him. Bye!" He said with a cute bunny smile and left.

I feel my heart ache each time i lie, so imagiane how i must feel. I am just not built to lie.

I stepped in my office, putting down my bag on the table. I didn't even sit down, and Taehyung knooked on the door.
"Lucy-ssi?" He asked with hasisation.
I didn't answer and just openwd the door to a scared young man, with a confused expression on his face.

"Are you alone?"
"Y-yes. I didn't asked for a cream."
"I know. Come in. There is somthing you need to know..."

Yes. It's time to tell someone. I can't lie to this innocent person. It is not fair...
"Listen, i know you lied yesturday that i for sick and i wanted to say thank you."
He didn't answer and just remain silent.
I took a deep breath and began speaking.
"Okay. There is a reason i said what i said and i did what i did yesturday. You are so sweet and cosiderate, and i know you will never hurt me."
"So why did you refused to accept my love?" Oh no. He's giving me his puppy eyes...

"That is what i have to tell you. When i graduated, i had a boyfriend. And it turned out that he wanted to propose to me soon and i got freaked out and... left." In my head is sounded way less crazy and stupid. But i did what i did and thete is no turning back now.

"How old did you say you were?"
"22"
"That young? And how old is he?"
"As old as me."
"That is crazy... this is so young. But wait, you just left? No excuses?"
"Well... sorta."

I felt bad. That wave of guilt has just hit me. I realized tgat i left him with no explanation ot answer to why i don't want to marry him, i truley loved him and i just left so easily! How could i? We weren't just lovers, we were best friends...

"Hey! It's okay! Don't cry please!" He suprised me with his big warm hug. What? What is he talking about?
Withouy even noticing, it turns out a another tear escaped me eye.
Well, now there were 2.