The Internship || Kim Namjoon Fanfiction

The Internship || Chapter 34: The True Meaning of Forgiveness

Okay. So before I start, I'd like to ask you not to judge me. I never do rash things, and definitely not stupid. But I felt such a slap from life that I knew that I had to follow my heart. Which is something I don't tend to do by the way.

There are some things about my life that you don't know. It's all fair and well that I am a 22 year old doctor, graduated with honours from Harvard, got a job.

But let's not forget why am I truly here: I ran from my ex and my father who don't support me anymore. Today, you will understand why.

I just... I don't know... felt really disappointed that I have disconnected from my dad over such a stupid thing. I feel like I could have maybe reach out for him. But I felt such anger towards him. And I still do. He is such a hippocratic!
He always criticises me on everything I do, he is never happy, wants all things done his way and most terribly, is stubborn.

I have given up facing him a long time ago, but it truly irritates me that I am a grown woman and he is STILL trying to control me!

So what can I do? Well, as I once said to you, I am not the drinking type. But drowing my blood with alcohol was the only thing I found fitting since everyone were asleep. Well, I hope I won't pass out.

Joking guys, I'm not gonna do shots.

I'll just buy a bottle of wine and drink it. I know it's dumb, but so be it. I just cannot keep think about this hurtful truth: I am alone.

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There we go. I just finished writing my song. Oh my god, it was a hard one I'll tell you that. I knew what I wanted to say, the message I wanted to pass on is clear to me. The problem is that I just cannot get it on paper! But I am truly happy that I stuck on and did not give up on this song. I feel such pride, that I think I should do what I always do when I feel happy: drink wine.

I took a black jacket and a mask and wore them. Then, I exit my room to go out and but some fancy wine. As I walked out, I noticed a woman exit the elevator and with a brown bag in her hand. It looks like a bottle of wine in my opinion, I am almost sure.

I must admit, I was intrigued by this woman. I stood still, watching her go in her room. By the way she pulled her room key in such blunt movments, I could tell she was upset.

Hmm... how interesting.

She stays on the same floor as me, she is a woman as it appears, and considering that the entire floor is the company and Bangtan, it seems like she is from the company.
How strange, I don't know anyone who drinks wine this late at night expect me. Some at the company drink beer or whisky, but not wine.

Oh wow, she seems very unwell. I walked quietly towards her. As I got closer, I noticed her physical details. She was tall, about 1.70 cm, she had dark hair and tanned skin. Well, she is not Korean as it seems because her face features were western.

Wait. I know only one person who is western and a crew member.

"Lucy?" I called her name gently, I tried my best to hind my cold tone in order not to worsen her situation. I don't know what suddenly changed my mood, but I just felt the need to help her. Or at least to make sure she is not up to something bad.
"Huh?" She turned to me, confused. Well I don't blame her, I was not the most friendly to her. But I had my reasons.
Had.

We stood there for a few seconds. Not knowing what to do next. I believe she was a bit surprised that I called her, and I was surprised that she was out buying a bottle of wine in the middle of the night.

I know her for almost a year now, and she is not the drinking type. And defiantly not in this time. Something really big must have happened to her that she chose to drink now.