Hostage

On The Rocks.

Keenan's POV

"Good morning, Mr. Monroe. This is Captain just passing on some information. We'll be flying at an altitude of 37,000 feet,speed it 430kilometers per hour. Please fasten your seatbelt and we'd arrive safely in Italy in approximately eight hours and thirty three minutes. I'd urge you to sit back and enjoy the ride."

I slouched down in my seat and tried to make myself comfortable as the plane began to glide, getting ready to take off.

I felt like an asshole.

I felt like an awfully bad person.

And for the first time in a long time, I felt utterly and completely helpless.

Staying away was a lot more difficult than I thought.

And the only thing worse than pretending not to care was pretending not to notice the eye bags that had formed beneath her eyes.

Pretending not to know that she'd been waiting up for me,pretending like I was okay with punishing her for my mistakes.....pretending like I wasn't punishing myself.

I inhaled and then exhaled, massaging my temples.

She was going to be the death of me.....Kimberly.

She was going to be the death of me.

"Can I get you anything sir?" A voice spoke softly. I opened my eyes slowly and then glanced up at the air hostess standing in front of me. I let my eyes linger on her hair for a moment. She was brunette too.... Her hair being just a shade darker than Kimberly's.

But she was nothing like Kimberly.

Her lips were curved slightly upwards in a smile but it didn't quite reach her eyes.

I thought was something strange about the way her hands constantly found her hair even though it was held tightly in a bun.

Her eyes were bright emerald green....unlike Kimberly's brown eyes.

"Mr. Monroe." She called again,softer this time,snapping me out of the trance i'd somehow found myself in. "I asked if I could get you anything?"

"I'm good. Please leave." I didn't mean to come off as harsh but the words left my mouth before I could help myself.

"Of course." She nodded and then walked away. I sighed and then reached for my Macbook. I needed a distraction.

I needed to think about something else.

Something else other than the fact that she'd called me when I turned away.

What would she have said if I turned around?

Would she have asked if I was avoiding her?

Would she have asked me to stay?

I smiled faintly and then shook my head at the ridiculousness of my situation.

I was in love with a girl who probably loved me back and I couldn't have her.

Or,let me rephrase..... I was in love with a girl who thought she was in love with me.
And I was scared out of my mind just thinking about it.....just thinking about her leaving me. The thought of rejection scared me shitless. The thought of hurting her someday....

I let go of a breath I didn't even know I was holding and then reached for my phone in the pocket of my coat.

I clicked on the message icon and then clicked on Paul's name on my screen.

I sat still for a few seconds, and then pursed my lip.

Me:"Did you get home already?"

I typed and then sighed,erasing the message.

"How is sh--"  I typed again and then clicked my tongue. This wasn't going to work. I set my phone on the table and then picked up my airpod when my phone beeped,indicating an incoming text message.

Hurriedly,I picked up my phone and then glanced at the screen.

Paul: We got home a while ago. I can't tell if she's fine since she went straight into her room and hasn't come out.

Paul: I know you think you're doing the right thing by keeping her in the dark but I think you're making a mistake.

Paul: I know its not in my place to say this,Keen,especially not at this time but she's your wife now Keenan. You deserve to be happy...and she deserves to know the truth...about everything.

Paul: None of it was your fault.

I turned off my phone before I could read further and then let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding as I signalled the air hostess over.

On a second thought,this wasn't a good time to fly sober.

"I'd have some whiskey." I told her. "On the rocks."

Lol.... Okay guys. Its almost 4am in the morning and I'm not even sure I know what I'm writing anymore.  (Lol)

I'm also aware that this is a short,shitty chapter. Please bear with me till I make out time to edit.

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Love,Chay.