Hostage

Nothing Else Matters

Roxi's POV

The moment those words left my mouth, I wished I could take them back.

I wished I didn't know. I wished I'd never found out.

Will's eyes widened as he met my gaze. I wanted him to say something. To tell me that it wasn't true,but he didn't. Instead, he looked away,a very bright shade of pink tinting his cheeks.

"Jason blames my mother for what happened. But Will, it was you." My voice broke. "The doctor, the needles, the injections, your money bought them." I continued. "You were supposed to make him better. But you killed him."

"Roxi-" He breathed. "Its not,its not what you think. Your mother-"

"My mother suffers for what she did. Every single day." My voice broke, and I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. "Jason hates her. Keen and Andre never visit the house anymore. She never sees her kids anymore. But y-you got away. Everyone looked past what you did-" I pursed my lip, feeling a tear drop roll down my cheeks. "I gave everything up. I gave myself to you so he could live. He was my dad Will, how could you?"

"Roxi,I-" His voice trembled as tears filled his eyes.

"I mourned him. You watched me mourn him. You saw what his death did to me. Y-you saw what his death did to Jason. To my entire family. You had no right to make that call."

"Roxi, I'm sorry." His hands found mine and I could feel them tremble even as he wrapped his fingers around mine. "I am so,so sorry. I-I,I had no idea what I was thinking. When-when your mother came to me for help, when she said that he was in a lot of pain Xi,all I wanted to do was help. I wanted to help take the pain away. I just-" He paused, his eyes searched mine, begging me to believe him. "I wanted you to have a normal life again. I wanted to make things easy. I wanted you to live for something else. I just-" He paused and then licked his lip. "I would never have agreed to it if I knew you didn't know. I thought I was doing the right thing. I-I-" He stammered. "I had no idea. Roxi,baby,you have to believe me."

His voice was laced with so much emotion,so much sincerity and I believed every single word he said.

I knew that he wasn't a murderer.

I knew that he believed he was doing the right thing at that time.

I'd hated him. From the moment I found out about what he did, every ounce of attraction I'd felt for him had slowly dissolved into hatred. I'd hated mum, and I'd hated myself for bringing him into the family.

Overtime, I'd come to understand mums decision. I'd come to understand why she did what she did.

We were never going to move on with dads situation. We'd never have learned to heal completely. She'd been given two choices and she chose us.

But still,it hurt. It hurt that I didn't get to say goodbye.

It hurt that I could have. It hurt that his actions took that away from me. I sniffed and then glanced down at our joined hands.

"You lied to me." I lowered my eyebrows. "All this time,you made me believe that you got married to me because you wouldn't get your inheritance without it. You fooled me-"

"I was only trying to help, Roxi. C-can't you see that? You would never have allowed me help any other way. Can't you see that there wasn't really another choice?"

"But you slept with them." I sniffed,feeling a tear drop roll down my cheek. "The maids, the workers at the office,our employees,Alessandra. You embarrassed me in front of everybody." I sniffed,laying emphasis on the word 'everybody.' At that moment, my phone beeped indicating a text message but it didn't matter. This was more important.

"From the moment I said my vows, Even if it was only an agreement wedding, Will,I knew I would stay faithful to you till our wedding contact expired at the very least. I thought you cared for me." The last part of my statement came out quieter than I anticipated, a drop of tears rolling down my cheek but I immediately brushed it off, replacing it with a smile. "But it doesn't matter. Nothing matters."

"Don't do that." His voice was low,a look of hurt crossed his features as his eyes held mine. "Don't get all plastic with me,Xi. I beg you." There was a crack in his voice as he said this last part. "H-hurt me if you want. Yell at me if you want but don't say that. It-It has to matter. It has to-" He dragged his eyes away from mine and I don't think he'd noticed that he let go of my hand either.
"Fuck, I'm sorry." He closed his eyes as he pinched the bridge of his nose but when he opened them again, there were tears threatening to fall. "Fuck, I'm so so sorry,Roxi. I-I'm sorry about your dad, I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I lied to you about the contact, I-"

"Will-" I called softly, watching him pinch the bridge of his nose once more. He was falling apart.... And at a very fast pace.

"And about the women,I-"

"Will-" I started once more but he seemed too caught up to his own thoughts to actually listen to anything I was saying.

"I need you Roxi. I-I," He stammered and then shook his head as if trying to push a thought away.

I forgave him.

I forgave him a long time ago.

And that was what I meant to say when I opened my mouth to speak but the moment my hand touched his and he raised his eyes to meet mine,I found my hand reaching up to wipe the tears away from his face.

"I love you." I breathed. My voice was so low that for a moment I thought he didn't heard me. But then his body tensed as his eyes widened. His expression quickly morphed into one of surprise as he opened his mouth to say something but I beat him to it. "I love you and right now, nothing else matters." I said a lot bolder than the first time, feeling tears cloud my vision. "Let's leave, Will. Let's just-" I paused and then bit my lip. "Let's just go somewhere and start over. Just you-" I fidgeted with his fingers. "And me-" I pulled his hand closer till it touched my stomach. "And our baby." I smiled amidst tears,feeling a few drops fall from my face onto our joined hands. For a moment,he watched me,saying absolutely nothing.

But then in an instant, he tugged at my arm,pulling me to his legs. His buried his head in my chest,his hands tightening around my waist. His shoulders trembled as he let out silent sobs,hot tears soaking my dress.

This was one of those moments.

Moments that would never be spoken of again, but would never be forgotten.

Moments that meant everything.

Moments that were everything.

Just like the time I'd asked if I could recommend something else when I still waited at Morning Glory.

Neither of us had known at that time but that was the start of our story.

And wherever dad was I sincerely hoped he thought I was making the right decision.

Because this man was the love of my life.

This man was my forever.