Secrets and Advantages

All For Her

"Are you good now?" Derek asked "still no, but you can stop, I think that's enough for today" I coughed "I didn't want to do this and hate doing this to you Michael, but remem-" "yeah, I know D, just.. you can go home now" I payed him for his damage so he could go "you know who to call if you ever need another beating" Derek chuckled at me then turned and left. I got up slowly and walked up the stairs to the bathroom to look in the mirror. "Doesn't look that bad" I said to myself while studying my face, 'he didn't do to much damage' I thought. He marked me with a busted lip, what looked and felt like a half broken nose (don't ask), a black eye, and a cut on my forehead "nice work" I thought out loud. Yes, if you're wondering, I payed someone to beat me up. Why? Because I'm a messed up person inside and out and I need some serious help.

"SOMEONE'S CALLING YOU, YOU BETTER PICK UP THE PHONE BEFORE THE-" my phone rang "hello?" I answered "hey Michael, I was just calling you to wonder WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!" I held the phone away from my ear as Ashton yelled through it "well, since you asked SO nicely, I'm at my mums house while she's out of town and she moved.Why?" I asked "why in Gods name are you at your mothers house when you are supposed to be in England with us?! Michael, you've been gone for a month and the fans are worried about you, they've already started rumors that you've left the band if you haven't seen already.. you need to come back ASAP" he said "dammit" I muttered "what was that?" Ashton asked "nothing, I'll catch the first flight I can there" I informed him and hung up the phone.

I ran downstairs and sat down on the couch then opened my mums laptop and searched the earliest flight to England. The closest flight would be tomorrow at eight in the morning. So that gave me at least an hour to pack, six hours of sleep, one hour to get myself together and up, an hour to drive to the airport, and then an hour to wait. I bought the ticket then laid back on the couch and took a deep breath and wiped my face. Was I ready to let the boys see me like this? Better yet, was I even ready to see the boys? I guess we'll find out tomorrow. I went upstairs and packed my bags then went to sleep.. "ready" and "wasn't able to wait" for the next day.