Secrets and Advantages

Stay

I sat in the same seat for days, only getting up to use the bathroom and ask if Marcella had woken up yet, which she hadn't. It had been five days, FIVE DAYS, and Marcella still hadn't woken up. And I still hadn't gotten up enough courage to go to her room.

The boys and almost everyone that knew her had came to visit her, then left either crying or looking confused.

Another day and another text from one of the boys..
Ashton: Hey, you should go
Me: I don't think I should go
Ashton: She needs you Mike, now more than ever. Doctor says there's no reason she shouldn't be up by now.. She might die.

I didn't reply.. This couldn't be happening. Not to Marcella, she didn't deserve this
Ashton: I know what you're thinking, go for it

I got up, exhaling deeply. As I walked to her room, I could hear my heart beating as every other sound disappeared. It felt like as if I were walking in slow motion, the seconds ticked by forever, everything moving by so slow.

My hands were clammy when I was near her window. I took a shaky breath and looked in the window. There she was. Pale but yet beautiful as ever even though she wasn't in her best state. She looked as if she were sleeping soundly.

I went in the room and nearly threw up. Seeing the person that was the most amazing thing ever go into a stage of life that nobody wants to be at because of you, sucked. I sat in the chair beside her bed then realized I had stopped breathing. Tears fell everywhere when I took her hand in mine, I couldn't hold them in anymore. "I'm sorry. I'm so very sorry Marcella, I never meant to hurt you. I'm so sorry for all the times I made you hurt or cry or anything. I'd do anything for you if you just come back, please. Stay with me, if you just stay, please." I bit my lip and cried as I held on to her hand tightly. My stomach hurt after a few minutes of crying so hard. "I miss you, I need you. Please, don't give up. I promise that if you come back you'll never be unhappy again. Just please come back. I need you." The heart monitor beat slower and I prayed to God "babe, I need you, don't give up. We need each other." Just then, her heart stopped and I ran to the trashcan.

The doctors told me I needed to get out so I did but looked inside from the window, I wasn't leaving her side again. Within minutes, her heart started beating again, and I could breath normally again. But the doctors didn't let me back in the room with her for an hour.

I waited on the floor outside her door, seconds drug into minutes so slowly that it was killing me, I needed to get in there.

The hour took so long to pass by but I was glad it did. I rushed to her side as soon as I set foot in the door. "Marcella, listen, if you can hear me.. I love you and I want you to stay. Better yet, I need you to stay. Don't leave. Not again" I grabbed her hand and her heartbeat started racing then I sat down "if you can hear me, please wake up" then I kissed her hand and laid my forehead on it for a few minutes before..

I looked up and her lips color was coming back, she was breathing normally now and I couldn't believe it. "Marcella?" I asked "M-Mike" she breathed out "Mikey. Michael" "I'm here love, I'm here" I squeezed her hand. Her eyes fluttered open and she stared at me "Michael" she whispered as a single tear fell from her eye.

I kissed her and she kissed back... Hopefully the start of something beautiful.