Why not?

Chap 8: Guilt

(A/ N Sirds had just finished telling Mikey the plan, but the plan won't be revealed for the reader so that nothing is spoiled.)

Mikey's P.O.V:

"Wow, um, that's-" Mikey began.

"Yeah, I know. But that's what needs to happen. There's no other way," interrupted Sirds.

I couldn't believe what was about to happen. "But why? Why do I have to do all that? Can't you just wip up some spell? You are a being out of this world," said Mikey.

"It's not that simple Mikey. I can't just do whatever I want. There are limitations to my powers," explained Sirds. 

Damn. Of course it wouldn't be that easy. "There's also something else," continued Sirds,"I think it would be best if I erased certain parts of the plan from out of your mind."

I looked at Sirds as if he was crazy. "What?! If you were just gonna erase my memory, why did you bother telling me it in the first place?"

"I'm not gonna erase the ENTIRE plan, just enough so that you have a natural reaction. There are parts in the plan in which you need a real emotion, not an acting one," explained Sirds.

I nodded. I knew what parts needed a real reaction. This plan was gonna be like hell. "Okay, but if you can erase my memory, can't you just erase the memories of my brothers seeing me as a screwup instead?" I asked.

Sirds looked at me disgusted. "You would use my powers to do that? You would manipulate their lives for your selfish needs?"

"Well, you're changing my life so that you can be off the hook with your mistakes," I retorted.

"Yeah, but first of all, you agreed to this, so you can't use that excuse. The only way I would erase their memories is if they willingly do it, which I seriously doubt that they would. And second of all, I'm not only helping myself, I'm also helping you. It's symbiotic," replied Sirds.

"Yeah I guess that's fair," I said.

I was gonna say something else until we heard a loud explosion in our opposite direction. Sirds and I looked to where we heard the loud boom. It was about 7 blocks away. But what else I saw was... "Wait, are those my brothers and Casey?" I asked. 

Yeah, I had pretty exceptional vision. "From what I can see, I'm not quite sure. What do they seem to be doing?" asked Sirds.

"They're on a rooftop across the building that exploded," I answered.

"That sound was a building exploding?"

"Pretty much. Raph is leaning on Casey. He seems to be hurt. Leo and Donnie look pretty okay, but I can see they're hurt. Casey seems to be the only one who's fine," I said.

I looked over at the floating heart. Sirds remained silent. I couldn't help but feel guilty. Maybe he also felt guilty. I guess he still does reflect my emotions. But the reason I felt guilty was because I didn't get to the mission in time. Maybe if I would just have kept going, and maybe told Sirds to tell me the truth later, none of this wouldn't have happened. "Mikey-" began Sirds.

But I interrupted him, "No, I don't want to hear it."

Yeah. This wouldn't have happened. If I went on the mission, then I would've made it worse. They ALL would've been hurt. Maybe even dead. It would be all my fault. I'm just a screwup. I looked back to where I saw the guys at first. They were gone now, probably going back to the lair. "We should go back to the lair," I told Sirds, trying hard not to make my voice crack.