yeah okay.
so maybe you weren't
my worst nightmare
maybe you still are
the boy i fell in love with.
maybe i was a bit hung up,
a bit selfish.
thinking a bit that everything was about me
a bit too much for my little head
what a bratty, disgusting, bitchy child
that is me, of course
not you.
i never want you dead
i want to wash away your red
dead memories of glinting grays
ashy black tiles.
please don't do this
please?
i never wanted you hurt
i told you,
i do not hate you.
saturn's rings are all the universe needs
do not make your own.
the reds can drip from my planet
but your mono craters do not need
the other side we have not seen
i wish i knew it when i had the chance.
oh, if you had known
the songs i would sing to you
lana del rey and girl in red
but now the choked melodies are softer
joji and chloe moriondo
harmonize alone.
no harmony.
pluto and saturn my two homes
but now in this empty black universe i float alone
baby star jars
gentle defeat.
the skies still lie
the truth is brutal
but red, just tell me
all you want to say?
the pain is worth knowing
what is in your delicate head
my heart is a mush
it can't get much worse
so let it all out,
scream claw and shout
i will listen.
humans lie to be kind but
i am not as human as you think.
so do not be one
and even if it is different now
do not say those three words!
we are all different
once the hurricane wrecks your home.
-jb
