i wanna say something
i want to scream for help
it's so cliche,
feels like i'm drowning
or there's duct tape over my mouth,
but that's how it feels.
i really, really want to talk to someone
who cares about me
but i can't.
myself will not let
me.
and if someone asks, "are u okay?"
i'll say
"yeah, i'm fine."
and if they ask again
i'll repeat myself.
when i really, really just want to say
"no! i'm not. i'm nowhere near okay."
"i'm scared, i'm lost and it's all so cliche but
that's all i can really say except i have so much more
and how do you put thoughts into words?"
i want to roll up my sleeves and tell you the truth
but then wouldn't i be an attention seeker?
tell me what's wrong with me
because i can't, since the list is oh so long
tell me what's wrong with my cliche hurting.
-jb
