today my bracelet fell off.
no it didn't, just kidding.
it's pretty woven colours are still wrapped around my wrist
like her hand was
and her eyes were.
three different girls
all of you still cling to me.
what is it with bracelets?
the second girl, we had matching ones
overpriced from the yosemite gift shop
"certifigaytion", we called it
and it had so many coloured beads
they reminded me of little planets.
and of you, of course.
then the third girl
who's pale fingers whipped around for two weeks
and made a beautiful friendship bracelet
with little fish swimming around the strands
and i looked at it all week, when you were making it
jealous of whoever would end up with it.
i never thought it would be me.
but here it is,
and i never want it to fall off.
the first girl, i don't know.
not really any bracelets.
nor did she cling to my wrist like the second girl, and to my hands
but she gave me friendship.
since first grade friendship
and i'm so stupid for not asking her out when i should have
my heart still hurts.
i haven't spoken to you in a year, dl.
but i want to
so should i say something?
are you waiting for me to?
or do you want to let me go?
because that's okay too, i guess.
i just miss you,
and singing broadway songs on the track
with lana del rey and now clairo
until our lungs gave out.
-jb
