CALL ME BACK? || Noah Centineo AU (3rd Book)

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Noah:

“Babe, I’m home!” I say loudly walking inside the house. It is silent again, it's been silent for weeks, I sighed rubbing my face with my hands remembering why i had been dreading this very moment all day. I used to be so eager to go home everyday after work, and now i didn’t want to leave that office, I would even try to work a little extra hours whenever i could.

Valerie barely speaks a word to me daily and she doesn’t even look at me in the eye. I would love to be home but she gives me nasty looks whenever i’m here. I wouldn’t know what she’s thinking about, she never wants to talk about how she’s feeling.

I loved Stacy, she was gonna be the most beautiful girl in the world, aside from her mother, and letting go is definitely not easy, but i didn’t know i might had to let go of Valery too.

I went into our room and placed my suitcase on the desk. I sighed in exhaustion, i wasn’t tired because of work, i was exhausted of thinking and overthinking about everything, Valerie was not in our room or the bathroom, so i immediately knew where she was.

I turned around and walked out of our bedroom and took a deep breath before walking down the hall to the room in the end. Stacy’s room. I hated coming to this room. I don’t understand how Valerie does it. Then again, it doesn’t seem like she enjoys being here either, but i don’t understand her behaviour these days either way.

I walked into the nursery, It was decorated with paintings Valerie had done on the walls, we furnished it little by little and after Stacy’s baby shower we had enough gifts and clothes to fill up the whole room. It really pained me to be in this room, but Valerie spent most of her days here.

I asked to stay here with her this morning, just like i do everyday, but she didn’t want my company, she rejected every sign of affection i tried to give her, she ignored me completely and she always left the room i was in. If she wasn’t in this room, she would sit in bed quietly and replied one word responses to every question i asked her.

Valerie was sitting on the floor looking at the baby crib in front of her. Her legs crossed in front of her in a yoga-like position, her elbows resting in her knees and her cheeks on her knuckles. It was like she was on a trance.

“Hey monkey… Isn’t that floor a little bit uncomfortable?” I said softly, she turned her head and looked up at me. then she turned her head back to the front and looked at the crib again. Now she had a big frown on her face.

I sighed and sat on the floor next to her, I was not going to let her do this. I placed my hand on her thigh and gave it a reassuring squeeze, she didn’t do anything to make me pull away, but she didn’t do anything at all about it either.

“What do you want for dinner? We can cook, we can order, we can go out, anything you want, my princess, I know you can’t resist some thai, huh?” I say stroking her cheek with the back of my hand, she remains basically unresponsive and then shrugs sighing.

“don’t care, Noah, I’m not hungry at all…” She said biting her lips and sighing to herself. It was like she was in her own word, and whatever i said was bothering her thoughts, I didn't care anyway, she can’t keep doing this.

“Valerie,  you have to eat something” I said sternly, she turned her head to me and glares defiantly.

She narrows her eyes and talks through gritted teeth “I… had .. lunch... “ She angrily responded, i looked at her with the same strength in my eyes she was not going to intimidate me, I was worried about her wellbeing, and i was not going to let her go just like that.

“Lunch was 8 hours ago” I raise an eyebrow and she rolls her eyes averting her eyes from mine. She pulls her messy wavy hair that was scattered across her face, and she hold it up in a a bun, her jawline and cheekbones look a little more prominent, she has lost a lot of weight.

“I’m not hungry, don’t be annoying.” She said with the same angry tone, I groaned and stood up from the floor, taking her arm and trying to make her stand up, she was not letting me and she only glared trying her best to stay seated on the floor.

“VALERIE, STOP ACTING LIKE THIS! DO YOU THINK YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE THAT LOST A BABY?!!!” I raise my voice at her, She widens her eyes surprised at my outburst, my eyes were watery and she stood up from the floor glaring at me. She was right there in front of me, lifting her head to look at me properly and looking at me mad. She was challenging me with her pose.

“ LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE” She screamed back and walked to the door, i don't try to stop her and i hear our bedroom door shut loudly I looked around at myself all alone in this room,a room full of memories, full of crushed dreams and hopes. I let out a frustrated scream and sit on the rocking chair in that room. Tears fall down my eyes and ‘m not able to control it. In this very chair, she was going to be breastfeeding our little girl. In this very room, Stacy was probably going to say Daddy for the first time.

I was in pain. And the only person that i could talk to about this, the only person that could remotely understand me and could make me feel better was not even speaking to me. I would always be there for her, whenever she needed it. But right now, as i was rocking in that chair, looking at the wall, i know i didn’t have anyone in this very moment, I felt like i had lost the 2 loves of my lifes that day.

Drying my face, and taking a few deep breaths to calm myself down, i take my phone out of my coat and dial the number of the person that’s always going to be there for me… My mother. Even if she didn’t like valerie very much, she has accepted it, and she was just as happy to be a grandmother as i was to be a father.

I know I need professional help, but at least it will do for now.

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Heeeeey I'm here again, this chapter is short but it shows a little of what V and Noah are going thorough.

I'm so happy with the attention this story is getting, keep it up, I love it ❤️

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