CALL ME BACK? || Noah Centineo AU (3rd Book)

T H I R T E E N

Valerie:

I'm too exhausted to fight Noah in his new desition. I really can't do anything against it and it is much better than being in this hospital.

I wanted to get out to finish what I had started but I will be staying with Noah now, I can't have him be the one to find my dead body on the bed. It would break him more than I already have.

My plans will have to be paused. He asked me to give him a chance to take my pain away and I will. I have to. I owe him at least that.

My mom wasn't too fond of taking me out of the hospital, but Noah made her a million promises that I will be okay and that he will be with me 24/7.

I hope he keeps that promise. Even if I was a bitch to him, having him leave the apartment every day to work after what happened with Stacy would make me feel so lonely, even if I told him I didn't want him to stay, deep down I did, and he just didn't do it.

I don't know how he's doing with work now, it can't be that great since he left to California for several weeks and now he's promising to not leave my side.

But I don't really care, I just want my soft king sized bed and my windy weather. Anywhere is better than that horrible hospital.

We pass the security checkpoint at the airport and I'm numbly walking with Noah holding my hand and leading me into the gates. I'm just there, existing, breathing, when I wish I wouldn't.

We sit down on the waiting room and Noah is still holding my hand. He brings my hand to his lips and kisses it softly.

"thank you" he says softly after he kisses my hand. I look up at him, confused,  thank you for what? For hurting him over and over and over again?

"hmm?" I manage to whisper, hoping it's enough to get him to explain . I barely have spoken since he got me out of the hospital. My voice comes out roughly.

"for coming home with me, I have missed you so much" he says softly and I smile at him. He smiles back and that's enough to lighten my whole day.

"thank you for getting me out of there" I thank back. He nods and strokes my cheek gently. I close my eyes and lean into his hand.

"I'm gonna make you happy again, Valerie, we'll get through this together, okay?" he says gently and I hum in response as my tired head rest in his hand. I'm not really believing I'll get better, but at least one of us has hope.

The flight attendant starts boarding the plane and Noah and I head to the gates. After waiting in line and getting seated, Noah still holds my hand, I rest my head in his shoulder and he pulls away for a second to lift the arm rest between us, he wraps his arm around me and I cuddle into his chest getting comfier, I feel so tired, I just need some sleep. He kisses my head and I look up at him for a few seconds. He's so gorgeous.

"I love you, Noah" I whisper and he smiles. I look down at his lips, I really wanna kiss him, I haven't done it in so long, but kisses always lead to something else, and I can't let myself get pregnant, ever again. I look back at his eyes hoping he didn't noticed I was staring at his lips, but of course he did.

"why don't you do it?" he asks, he doesn't need to explain because I know exactly what he's talking about. I bite my lip and shake my head, turning around to my cuddling position again where he can't see my face.

"because… It scares me…I'm sorry " i whisper and Noah's hold on me tightens, he rests his head in mine and I feel him nodding

"it's okay baby, you don't have to apologize for that" he says in my ear and I nod feeling my eyes get heavier. The flight attendants start showing the security steps in case of an emergency and I find myself fast asleep before the plane even takes off.

I open my eyes and look out of the window, is night already. I look at Noah and he's asleep as well, he's tired, my stupid decisions have deprived him from sleeping. I wish I could change that. I wish I would always made the right decisions like he does, he's too good for me.

The announcement telling us that the plane is about to land wakes Noah up and he yawns and stretches as he looks at me. A soft smile on his lips. "evening" he greets me and I smile, barely, but it is there

"did you rest?" I ask concerned. I know I didn't   I still feel tired, sleepiness is a constant in my life now, no matter how much I sleep.

"a little bit, this seats are too uncomfortable, can't wait till I lay on our bed and fall asleep hearing the waves crashing on the shore" he smiles and I frown looking at him. I thought we were going home, not to his beach house in the Hamptons

"weren't we going home?" I ask puzzled and he nods

"yeah, we are.." he stays quiet for a bit and then curses under his breath "shit…I forgot to tell you didn't i" he holds my hand, I see it in his face, he's worried, scared even. "I… i… I moved everything from the apartment to the Hamptons house.. I couldn't stand being in that apartment. Please don't get mad at me, so many things happened that I forgot to tell you" he pleads.

He's really scared I might snap. I always do and end up saying really hurtful things to him. I take a deep breath and nod silently , I am upset, I loved our apartment, I decorated everything in it, but it was tainted, tainted with so many painful memories, in the end, it was a good call.

"I'm not mad…" I sigh and rest my head on the window looking at the city as we approached it. "I wish you've told me sooner but I understand why you did it" I say drawing little circles on the plane window "the Hamptons house is not so bad, I guess"

I can always throw myself in the sea and wait to drown.

"I tried to place everything like you'd want it to be, let's just see it as a very long vacation" he nervously smile and I nod resting my head in his shoulder again.

"what about your job?" I finally asked, I was hoping he wouldn't leave me everyday to go to work, and I doubt he'd drive over an hour from the Hamptons to get to his office everyday.

"umm let's say I'm taking a sabbatical"

"we can't take a year off, we don't have that kind of money" I say frowning and he chuckles

"I have some savings and… Umm" he is gonna say something else, but he's scared again of how I might react.

"and?" I press, he sighs and runs his hand on his hair.

"I hired someone to manage the gallery" my eyes widen. I had completely forgotten about it "they are buying things, selling… we'll just get some income from there too, until we both want to get back to work" he bites his lip nervously. There are to many changes, and I don't know how to feel about it. I feel annoyed that he decided to take decisions on the only thing that was completely mine.

I pulled away from him and sat straight on my seat crossing my arms in front of my chest. He moved our stuff and he hired people into my gallery, without asking me anything.

"Valerie? Don't get mad at me, I did what I had to…" he pleaded. And I huffed in annoyance

"I don't want to talk about it" I say sharply and he sighs sitting straight on his chair too and not saying a word until the plane landed

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Can Valerie be nice to him for 20 minutes straight? Ugh

Another chapter :3 I hope you enjoy. I'm gonna be a bit busy this upcoming week so I'll post when this gets to 40 votes and 15 comments. (I'm being greedy, I know)

I'm the meantime, check my other story "reckless" I'm trying to update it constantly as well and the writing is so much better, give it a try!