Holding on (Andy Biersack)

Forgetting my problems

(Jade's P.O.V)

"Ashley don't you dare touch my Ben and Jerry's ice cream or I'll kill you"

I was currently sitting on someone's lap I can't tell you who's because everyone was sitting on the couch trying to get my ice cream.And these were the moments in my life where I always wondered why I had so many guy friends.I mean technically they were just really hungry annoying and really hot monkeys.My thoughts were torn apart by Kathy's ear piercing scream from the bunk part of our bus.And Kathy never screamed she actually was the most relaxed and organized of us.

"What's wrong Kathy!" Cat jumped up and ran to where Kathy was standing.

Buy she just looked at us and pointed to the room we were sitting in.Why was she doing that?!?I yawned and tried to grab the ice cream out of Jake's hands when I heard footsteps coming behind me and the person snatched the ice cream tub away.

"Why did you do that?" I screamed at a really angry Kathy.

She took the TV remote out of Andy's hands and put the TV on mute before speaking up.

"Don't you see the mess you made?Now first you're going to clean it all up or no ice cream for any one of you!Now I'll be outside for a bit watching bands perform and when I'm back I want this place to be clean again.Do you understand me?"

Everyone muttered some kind of apology and grumpily started clearing the mess away. After shouting at the bvb band for a bit telling them to get their ass up and get ready to perform she went outside and I just couldn't hold back a smile.I mean this moment this whole thing it felt so real and I felt alive for the first time in my life.

I sent a silent prayer to Kathy for being here because otherwise Cat and I would never have survived.

I looked up from the floor where I was crouching and tried to sit up when I looked into these crystal blue eyes that had saved my life in many many ways.

Andy bend down and started helping me clear the mess when I felt his breath right next to my ear..

"You know we still have to talk,don't you?"

I started trembling immediately before I  replied."But Andy my story wasn't that dramatic I don't know what the big deal about that is!"

He looked a bit startled before he started ..giggling? seriously?

" You were depressed never made any friends just because you were scared to lose them then you got blamed for a stupid murder and .."he didn't continue to speak when he saw the tears in my eyes,he knew that it pained me to think of Dean.

"Andy we need to go!"Jake shouted while opening the door of the bus again.But Andy just looked at me as if he wanted permission to be able to perform.

"Go perform Andy we can talk later." I tried to smile and him to show him that I was fine.

"Okay bye,but I'll come back when were done"Then he raised an eyebrow before adding"Sometime you really should watch us perform or don't you like black veil brides?"

I  just laughed at his thoughts if only he knew how much I loved their music."Of course I'll come sometime but right now I just want to rest and by the way I'm a huge fan!"

Then Andy and Jake smiled at me and went out so I turned around and headed for The bathroom.I hoped that Cat had gone along with them do she wouldn't hear the screams when I cut..

I took a fresh blade and as insane as it sounds I never used a blade to often because I thought it was unhygienic.So I cried and cried I really couldn't live knowing that Dean had died while he tried to pick me up so I wouldn't commit suicide. It should have been me not him.After washing my bloody arm I went back to my bunk grabbed some bracelets and started listening to my Sleeping with Sirens Album.

I saw the sun setting and it looked so beautiful when the red mixed with the blue at the horizon..I heard some laughing and them the door to the bus opened and Kathy came in followed by the others."So oh my god you really cleaned up I'm proud of you guys!"

Calum started laughing when Kathy pinched Cat's cheeks.Since when was Calum here? I thought that they had shows to play I mean 5 sos were touring America so they could visit us quite often but still..

"So now we can go out and get drunk!"Ashley screamed and ran outside.

To go get drunk meant to forget for a while it sounded like a good idea so I grabbed a sweater and followed the others and I ignored Andy's glares.He was probably just thinking things like 'that doesn't solve anything'or crap like that...

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A.N So another chappie!I hope you like it..

And seriously I'm not sure when I'm going to update next I just know that I'll probably update Yours truly again because that's due..

So stay beautiful my little band fans!

                               Monaxx