Lovers *St Berry*

Dreams

"You know our one year anniversary is close." Jesse twirled me around their bedroom.

"I don't think we should leave Lori for that long." I smiled

"Why?"

"I'm afraid if it's so romantic, which I know it will. I won't be able to keep my hands off you." I kissed him and then gave Lori to him.

"We can talk about this more after school."

"Lori has a doctor's appointment today don't forget."

"I won't." His phone rang disrupting their ending conversation. The call was short. Too short.

"Rach, find Lori a sitter I have to go. I love you." He hurried out of the room.

"How am I going to find a sitter?" I mumbled.

"I have nationals in two days. So we have to rehearse all day. But if you need to go Drop her off at the auditorium." I told my dads.

"We know how to take care if a child." He reminded me.

"I know I just can't leave her." I kissed her on the head hoping they wouldn't ask any questions.

"Your spreading yourself too thin. With glee and a baby. Why don't you take a day off from your life." My dad's suggestion made me me laugh.

"I have to go to school." And I was off.

"Step on things, hand up, and point to the sky." Mr Shue instructed us at glee rehearsals. I was dying from heat and a stomach ache. I gagged and everybody noticed.

"Rachel are you okay?" Mr Shue asked.

"I knew you were pregnant again. " Brittany said

"No I'm fine." I shrugged my pain off.

"Maybe you should sit out?" Quinn said.

"I gave a month an a half ago. I don't need any more sympathy." I glared at the club.

"Are you sure your fine?" Blaine asked. "Your not acting like yourself.

"I like new Rachel. She has better style. And she's way more of a bitch." Santana smirked.

"Sorry I'm late." Jesse walked in the rehearsal.

"Where were you?" I asked him. Ever since she left this morning I hadn't heard from him.

"I can't say yet. It's nothing to worry about" He responded

"Jesse, please tell me."

"I'll tell you later then." He pecked me on the cheek.

"Its almost the end if the year. For most of you the last. But don't focus on that part. Focus on your last performance, nationals. Give it all your effort. I'm talking to you Mercedes." Jesse said and pushed down the radio play button

We all rehearsed then Quinn got a phone call and age left. When she returned she had Lorelei

"Lorelei what are you doing here?" Jesse said in his baby voice.

"She's just an angel." Mercedes said

"She's so beautiful." Will said.

"Yeah she is," I smiled at her in my arms. "Your just perfect aren't you?"

"Shouldn't we practice now Mr shue?" Finn asked.

"I'll just put he run her carseat and then we can practice." I said

"Won't she cry with all the noice?" Blaine asked

"No, somehow it makes her happier." Jesse said.

"I know we have nationals on our anniversary but I was thinking we could celebrate it in Los Angeles." I smiled while we were packing.

"You should have told me sooner. I would have made dinner reservations. But don't worry I'll plan it. I stood on my tippy toes so I could kiss him.

"It better be romantic."

"Look who your talking to."

"You know Lori is asleep. Maybe we could break my vow tonight?" I went to our bed and motioned for him to come with me.

"I like the sound of that. But we can't." He pulled my bra back up and handed me my shirt.

"We can." I pulled my shirt down again.

"No We can't." He pulled it up again

"Jesse why?" I asked

"Rachel," he took a deep breath and continued, "Your life was on track before I came back last year. You had your life together. I love you Rach but I can't do that to you again."

"We can be careful this time. Well use protection."

"Your not listening to me. We can wait until you won a Tony. Or at least marriage."

"What if I don't want to wait?"

"We have to. Rachel I need you to know that I can live without you having sex with me."

"Jesse tell me what this really about?"

"I want you to know I love you so much. Nobody else."

"And?"

"Charlie came back, Rachel. She just got on my nerves. She started saying all these things about you and Lorelei."

"Jesse it's really sweet that your worried about me and Lori, but everything Charlie says doesn't bother me. It just means she's jealous of what we have together." I looked to my sleeping angel.