AVNEIL: Love-Hate-Love Story

19. "I wish this was a worst nightmare"

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Avni's Pov :

The sun already drowned into the deap ocean leaving the sky with purple blue haze . it was almost going to be a night and here I'm walking lifelessly on mid streets of Mumbai ,don't know from how many hours. my legs ,my body were moving like a drunken as I really couldn't understand where and how I was going on lanes of mud. My eyes were fluffed ,almost bloodshot red with tears which in turn stopping my front view to see . now I even don't have Little energy to wipe the salty water which poured continuously from my eyes don't know from how many long hours.

My face became pale which doesn't have any expressions as my inner soul died quite hours ago in that restaurant. Walking through the road I could feel many people starring at me or previously my body and yeah I don't have a fear about that dangerous starres it is because the pain I have suffered today morning is far more than these nasty starrings .i chuckled.

Today, even God proved why girls are born... we girls are Just born to fulfill manly desires as I witnessed a monster which is In disguise of human who used a girl for lust. I really don't know, should I laugh or cry at my fate as every f***g thing messed. I came Mumbai with lots of expectations it's not cause to enjoy my life with friends it's because I have my own dreams and goals to complete and especially I want my family to be happy. But... Here everything is destroyed... My dignity, my character ,everything is demolished by the educated rich criminal.

Yesterday, my hopes were already scattered like a broken beads but I had a liltle wish that everything would be fine but I was wrong. God proved me wrong again making my heart to suffer with another problem. My heart is aching as the morning incident is stabbing me like a knife into my pumping organ.
But one thing I'm unable to understand if Neil wants my body he could have directly asked me for having make out session ?why the hell need of that bloody drama making me helpless.

Did he want only That I beg him to leave?

Did he want me to be in an immerse pain and want to enjoy my helpless state??

What the fuck? Why my mind is still not getting over the fact that the great topper Neil khanna could do anything like that. Why the hell I'm not admitting he is f*king rapist.

I swear if it is a dream then this would be my wrost night mare coz I trusted him.
I trusted Neil so blindly thinking he is a gentleman that even I haven't realized his evil intentions.
And now I just want anyone to wake me up from this nightmare but.... Avni... This is fuk*g reality.... He touched you. He kissed you forcibly !! Who gives him the right to touch me and who the hell is he ?Boyfriend? At least friend? No... So what should I call him... A moron who forced a girl to complete his manly desires? Ofcourse yes, that's true. He should be claimed as a "educated criminal ".

But I think blame should not given to him. It's me who at first sight thought he is a good guy and I faithfully trusted him without knowing the nasty person inside. Yeah why I'm cursing Neil it's not him who did all this to me. I was the only one who initiated kiss thinking and saving about my goal and studies . And I'm only one responsible for my terrible yet horrible condition. So yes there is no fault of Neil and I don't have any reasons to hate him as it was all me who pranked and digged my own grave. I have to admit this truth!!

But....but.... just for a silly reason can someone pull this type of filthy stunt ?? How so people wants to make suffer innocents.Yeah, after all what can I expect from a rich handsome guy , he is powerful and lusted over me so he just utilized opportunity and finally took my everything ,my first kiss my soul and even my character. But why I ain't protested rather than I kissed him senselessly tasting his mouth.