Every Song Tells A Story (Montgomery De La Cruz Oneshots)

Liability - Lorde

A/N: This chapter is sad for the most part but it does have a sweet surprise ending! Hope you enjoy it 😘

Baby really hurt me
Crying in the taxi
He don't wanna know me
Says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm
Says it was poison
So I guess I'll go home
Into the arms of the girl that I love
The only love I haven't screwed up
She's so hard to please
But she's a forest fire
I do my best to meet her demands
Play at romance, we slow dance
In the living room, but all that a stranger would see
Is one girl swaying alone
Stroking her cheek

I climbed out of the Uber and whispered a thank you before slowly walking inside of my house. I walked inside and immediately threw myself down onto my couch with a sigh. I've done it again. I ran another person off. First it was my parents whenever I was little and now it's just every person I become close with. My parents work out of state, I knew that they did that to get away from me. I have issues and as the years have gone on, they've just progressively gotten worse. I can't tell Monty why I'm so bad off now though. He wouldn't believe me. Just like I couldn't tell Jeff whenever I dated him either. Just like I can't tell Justin and Zach, two of my closest friends. I can't even tell Jessica, Hannah, and Sherri; the three girls' who pride themselves on being my best friends. Odds are, no one would believe me and even if they did, I don't want that kind of pity. It happened and it's over with now. I try to suck it up but little bits of pain ooze out of my skin and make me randomly cause scenes and push away the people that I love. Tonight it was Montgomery, my boyfriend of 6 months. We had a good thing going until I started slipping up and letting the pain and craziness slip out. He's tried to deal with it for the past couple of months but tonight was his breaking point. He brought me to Bryce's, even though I begged him to go somewhere else. He kept asking me what the big deal was but I couldn't tell him the truth. So instead of being honest, I just said I wanted to spend alone time with him.. which made me seem clingy. Monty doesn't like clingy. I finally gave up the fight and went, feeling like I was going to throw up the whole time. We were there for an hour before I finally cracked and really freaked out. Bryce touched me. He just placed his hand on my arm but that touch brought back so many memories that I deeply wanted to suppress. Before I could even stop myself, I was screaming, thrashing around, and repeatedly hitting Bryce. "Don't ever fucking touch me again! You'll never touch me again!" I screamed while kicking around in Montgomery's arms as he hauled me off. "What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He yelled at me once we were alone outside. "He.. he.. he touched me!" I blubbered our while hyperventilating. "People are gonna touch you throughout your life, Josephine. It's not a big deal. The way you just acted in there was so embarrassing and.. fucking psycho." He said while looking at me with a disgusted face. "You don't understand..." "And I never will because you won't let anyone in. Just go, I'm not doing this anymore." He said while waving me off. "Wait, what? You're breaking up with me?" I panicked. "I can't fucking do this shit anymore, Jo. I thought that I was messed up but you.. you take the cake. Go get some help. I'm out." He said before shaking his head and walking inside, leaving me standing next to the pool by myself. It should've hurt worse than it did but this has become a familiar feeling to me. Being abandoned feels normal. I wrapped my arms around myself and laid down on the couch. I've learned how to self comfort like a pro. When there's never anyone else to comfort you, you have to rely on yourself. I drifted off into a lonely sleep, the only kind of sleep I've ever known.

They say, "You're a little much for me
You're a liability
You're a little much for me"
So they pull back, make other plans
I understand, I'm a liability
Get you wild, make you leave
I'm a little much for
E-a-na-na-na, everyone