Every Song Tells A Story (Montgomery De La Cruz Oneshots)

Ghostin - Ariana Grande

I know you hear me when I cry
I try to hold it in the night
While you're sleepin' next to me
But it's your arms that I need this time (This time) Look at the cards that we've been dealt
If you were anybody else
Probably wouldn't last a day
Every tear's a rain parade from hell (From hell)

I bit my lip to try to hold in my sobs so that Scott wouldn't hear me but I just couldn't do it. Every night as I cry, the true noises of anguish slips through my lips as well. I don't want him to wake up from his sleep just to hear me crying about another guy.. my ex boyfriend at that.. but I just can't help it. He's gone now. I'll never be given the chance to try to work things out with him again or even just try to be friends with him. I do love Scott but as soon as I got the news that Montgomery had died, I had accept the truth that I'm still in love with him. He got shot by Tyler Down during a school shooting and he died on the scene. Everyone knew why Tyler killed him.. it was because Monty made his life a living hell all throughout high school. Understanding why he did it didn't make it any easier for me though. I loved Montgomery, I missed him even though I was already with Scott.. and now I'll never see him or hear from him again. Whenever Scott's not around, I listen to old saved voicemails on repeat just so I can hear Montgomery's voice one more time. It doesn't make it easier but in that moment, I feel peace because I can hear him and go back to that time in my mind. I squeezed the comforter to my chest tight as a loud sob escaped my mouth. A second later, I felt Scott's strong arms wrap around me from behind. I jumped a little from surprise but then immediately snuggled into his embrace. I needed his comfort.. even if he's not the guy I wish was comforting me. "It's gonna be okay, Nicole. I promise." He whispered into my ear before gently kissing behind it. "It doesn't feel like it will be..." "In time it won't hurt as bad. He wouldn't want you feeling like this though, you know that." He comforted me while rubbing his hand up and down my stomach gently. It always surprises me whenever he says stuff like that instead of running away or getting jealous. That just proves how amazing of a guy Scott really is. No other guy on Earth would ever put up with this out of their girlfriend.. but Scott does. I wish this hadn't of happened not just because I want Monty to still be alive, but also because Scott and I were doing so good before we were dealt this shitty hand of cards. I was happy and thought that I was so in love with him and completely over Montgomery. I am still in love with him to a certain extent but now I've realized that I'm still more in love with Monty and nowhere near over him. I want him back but I have to accept the fact that he'll never be coming back now. He's gone. For good. Being next to Scotty is the only thing that can even make it a little bit better.

Baby, you do it so well
You been so understanding, you been so good
And I'm puttin' you through more than one ever should
And I'm hating myself 'cause you don't want to
Admit that it hurts you

"I understand, baby. You don't need to apologize..." "I do though. I ruined our date by crying about Montgomery... again." I interrupted him in a sob. Scott had finally managed to get me to go out other than only leaving the house for school and he took me to the Crestmont to see a movie. I was already depressed the whole night but as soon as we sat down and I realized the theater room number, I had a meltdown. It was the same theater room that Monty and I were in on our first date. Theater room 8. The theater room that started a two year long relationship. "You didn't ruin our date, Nic. You just changed the plans a little bit." He said with a slight chuckle, trying to lighten the mood. I didn't even crack a smile though, just solemnly stared. He awkwardly cleared his throat while scratching the back of his neck and a lump formed in my throat. Monty always used to do that too. "Please don't do that." I whispered and he looked at me confused. "What are you..." "Don't scratch the back of your neck whenever you're uncomfortable. Monty used to always do that." I interrupted him. He stared at me for a minute before nodding. The air was awkwardly silent for a few minutes until he finally spoke up. "So since the movies is out, how about we go to Rosie's?" He asked with a hopeful little smile but I immediately shot him a dirty look. Monty and I used to go to Rosie's for milkshakes every single Friday night during our whole relationship. Even if he had a game, we still went after. Even if there was a party later, we still went before. No matter what, we went for our Friday night milkshakes. "How could you suggest that?" I snapped with a hurt tone to my voice. His eyes widened after a second, realizing where he went wrong. "I'm so sorry, babe. I totally forgot about the Friday night milkshakes..." He drifted off once I started crying again. "Don't cry, baby girl. You're gonna feel better tonight. Let's go to the docks..." "God damnit, Scotty! The docks? Are you fucking serious? That's where he gave me my promise ring!" I raised my voice while grabbing the promise ring that was on a chain around my neck and waving it around. "Well, where can we go, Nicole?" He asked in an exasperated tone. I rolled my eyes and shook my head before turning to walk off. "Nowhere. I'm going to be with Montgomery. I'll call you tomorrow." I sniffled before walking off, making my way down the street so I could go to the graveyard that Monty's buried at. As I was rounding a corner, I took one last look back at Scott and felt my heart drop at the sight of him crying before turning around and walking off himself. I'm hurting him even though I'm not meaning to. It's just so hard and literally everything reminds me of Monty which makes it even harder. Scott keeps trying to be good to be and not letting me know that I'm upsetting him but I know that I am. I want to go back to normal but I just can't. I can't lose Scott too but I know that I'm going to keep hurting him.. and that just makes me hate myself.