Ebony's Touch

Lets Take A Break

Waking up the next morning I feel exhausted. I turn on my phone and look to see I have notifications for new Instagram followers. Hmmm 23 new follow requests. I guess that's what happens when you go to a new school.

Honestly I feel like me and River are moving too fast, I just moved to this new school less than a week ago and I already have a soulmate. This school could be a fresh start to make new friends and to have more experiences. I feel confused right now. It's not that I don't love River because I do it's just things are moving so fast I want to give myself a chance to see if I want a boyfriend right now or not. I know that I'm not being fair to him but I think I need to tell him today that we need to slow down and take a break.

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I get out of bed and walk to my dresser and pull out a pair of Nike sweat shorts and a men's thin hoodie .....the women's ones are too short for me they end up looking like crop tops. I decide on putting my hair into a bun. I look at myself in my full length mirror and I notice I look like a hobo, but a comfy one at that. I really don't care how I look I just want my outfit to match my mood. I make my way down stairs.

" hey mom" I say to my mo who is sitting on the couch watching the news.

"Hi honey" she says but then looks up at me " honey is there something wrong?"

" nothing"

" Ebony I'm your mother don't try and lie to me, I know when my daughter has something that is upsetting her. Now tell me honey." She says sincerely

" well you know how me and River have been dating?"

" yes and? Did he break up with my daughter I will kill him did he cheat?" She asks frantically

" no mom nothing like that I swear." She gives me a look after I say that

" it's just that I think that we are moving too fast." I say

" Ebony I was trying to hold off on this talk for a while but seeing as you have someone special in your life I think this is the appropriate time to have a talk with you. Honey sex is completely natural, now if you are not ready to have sex then River will understand if he truely loves you. Now there are many forms of birth control-." She says while looking at me seriously but I cut her off I can not have this conversation with her im mortified!

" NO! We are not having sex and that's not what I'm talking about. I just never have had a boyfriend before and he talking about very serious things like love and it has me feeling like I'm suffocating. I do love him but I want to experience things like making friends by myself, because he is so popular everyone knows who he is and before they get to know me I want to make an impression without him being there. Ya know?"

" uh well that was a lot to take in. If I'm being honest sweetheart maybe take a break for a week and experience things by yourself first hand then see how you feel ...ok?" She says

" ya I guess" I say

" oh crap look at the time I'm gonna be late sorry I have to go ebony I will be home late today since I took a night shift ok well I will see you later, love you." She says shutting the door on her way out.

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I get on the bus about ten minutes later and plug my headphones in. I look up and see some but has added me on Snapchat, I think he goes to my old school but I'm not sure. So I look him up on insta and see that In fact he does go to my old school.  I get back on Snap and except his add and add him back to. A few minutes later he starts typing. A few more seconds later and I have a message from him and I open it. His name is Eric.

" hey" he says
" um hi ig we used to go to the same school huh?"
"Yea we did I just never had the guts to talk to you."
" oh lol ."

" So do you have a boyfriend?"
" yea I do"

" oh that's a shame"
" nah it's not"
" well it is for me." He says
I know what he is getting at and I'm not gonna go for that.

" that's cool"
" well can we be friends?🥶" he asks
Hmm I'm thinking about it and I dot see any harm in it so why not ?

" sure why not"
" cool so wanna snap back and forth in class so we can get to no each other"
" sure man." I type back in reply
He sends me a snap and I open it and it's a pic of his face with a baseball cap on.He is actually hot not as hot as River but hot none the less.
I snap back with the doggy filter on and say " gotta get off of the bus see ya bro👋"

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I walk into school preparing myself to tell River we need to take a break. Hopefully it doesn't go bad I'm not gonna say it's not forever just for like a week or so.