Beca's Choice

Forgiveness

When the Bell rung, Jesse and Beca rushed out of the classroom so they werent caught skipping class, narrowly missing being seen by a teacher. Beca felt her heart begin to race as the idea of confronting both Emily and Chloe. Espically at the same time. "I don't think I can do this" she says to Jesse quietly, and he turns to look at her but his eyes widen in shock, a fake smile forming as he nods. "Yep. Yep." He says and Beca caught on what had happened. She didn't want to see them, so either both of them was behind her, or one of them was. "So. Is Emily behind me? Or Chloe? Or am i completely fucked with both of you" Beca asks out loud, her eyes squinted closed as she waits for the answer. "It's Emily" She hears her voice from behind her, and she opens her eyes to Jesse giving her a sympathetic look. "I'll... see you guys later" he says softly before walking off. Beca silently cursing him as he walks off hoping he'd bail her out. But she knew he was doing her a favour by leaving the two to talk.

Beca turns to Emily, who had a hard time keeping eye contact, avoiding it every time she caught Beca's eye's. "So..." Emily trails off, her fingers tapping together as she finally looks at Beca. "If you wanna tell me how much of a shit friend I am, go right ahead. I deserve it" Beca told her, and Emily sighs and shakes her head. "Beca, you are not a shit friend. What you did to me was shitty. But... I want to know why you said it. You deserve the chance to explain" she tells Beca. Beca then sighs and rests against the wall, running her hand through her hair. "I got accepted into Harvard and Standford." She tells Emily. "Yeah, I know. We all know that Beca and... oh" Emily cuts off as she realises what Beca had been doing. "You were pushing us away so you had no reason to stay, wasn't you?" She asked and Beca looked at the floor and nodding, biting her lower lip. "You're all going to Barden. How can I go knowing that I'll lose you all by going? I mean, I hadn't even applied to Barden till I came here. Getting back into music made me think, and I thought about studying Music Theory. But... I know that getting a job in music is hard, getting a job with a doctorate in Neurobiology, alot easier." Beca explains. Emily nods as she takes a deep breath. "Beca, you need to do what you want. There's only one question that matters for this. Which do you enjoy the most? Neurobiology might be the best route, but can you say in ten years you'll not regret going for music theory? Or vice versa?" Emily says. Beca takes in what Emily has to say and then breaks into a smile. "God I'm lucky to have you, Emily" Beca says. "But does this mean you forgive me?" She adds, looking at Emily expectedly. Emily over exaggerates a thinking look, making a wierd face as she does so. But she eventually breaks into a smile and nods. "Of course I do. Now give Em some love" she holds her arms out, shaking herself causing Beca to laugh and walk over and hugs the tall brunette. "I can't thank you enough for forgiving me. I know i fucked up" she says as she pulls away from the hug. Emily smiles and gives a wink. "Well. You are very fuckable, Becs." She pokes, causing Beca to laugh. "Thanks, Em. But remind me never to be in a bedroom alone with you" she retorts, Emily sighs and shrugs. "Your loss" she says. The two share a look and laugh together.

The two begin to head for their usual lunch table. "You talked to Chloe yet?" Emily asked Beca and she shakes her head. "I... no." Beca frowns as she looks around, thankfully Chloe wasn't here. Yet. "What are you going to say?" Emily asks as the two take their seat at their table. "I have no idea" Beca admits. "Well, It won't be long till she gets here, so think quickly." Emily tells her, amd Beca nods as she falls into her folded arms. "God this is so shit" She mumbles before looking back up at Emily. "Yeah... You got about thirty seconds until you gotta talk to Chloe" Emily says as she looks behind Beca. Beca felt her breath get caught in her throat as she goes over what she should say.

"Hey Em... Hey Beca." Chloe says rather awkwardly, as her eyes flick between the two. "I... Think I might go see what Jesse is doing" Emily says as she grabs her bag quickly and leaves the table and runs out of the canteen. Beca looks over at Chloe slowly, and she saw her blue eyes looking back. God those eyes made her weak. "I'm sorry if what I did a few days ago was too much. I thought you would like it" Chloe says, causing Beca to look at her with surprise. "What? No! It was beautiful, Chloe. Really it was. I... I just... I got into Harvard and Stanford. That was always my plan. But coming here, I had more of a reason to stay around. And now. Now I have a choice. Go to Barden, or go away. I panicked, and lashed out. I needed you all to hate me so leaving wasn't a big deal." Beca explains. Chloe nods as she walks over to the seat across from Beca." I get it, I guess. But, why didn't you tell me, Beca?. You're meant to trust me." Chloe asks and Beca sighs as she runs her hand through her hair, pushing it to the side." I haven't had friends since coming here, Chlo. Not like this anyway. I'm new to the whole trust thing. I reverted to how I was before. And I'm sorry. Truly, I am. I wish I could of spoke to you, its not that I don't trust you. I do. It's just, how I am." Beca explains. Chloe nods as she bites her lip, looking down at her lap as she fiddles with her fingers. "I understand, Beca. I think anyway. I guess I've always had Audrey, Jesse, Emily and friends I can trust. I don't think I know what it must of been like in your shoes." Chloe admits as she sighs and runs her hand through her copper hair. "All I've had till coming here is my Dad and Elsa in my life. And Elsa has only been there for the past five years. Trusting them is easy. But trusting friends, it still feels alien to me. I'm learning. But sometimes I fuck up" Beca says as she slowly reaches for Chloes hand, and Chloe meets her hand half way before bringing it up to her lips and leaving a gentle kiss on it. "You've forgiven me when I messed up. It's only fair I do the same to you Becs." Chloe says and Beca beams at the redhead before throwing herself at Chloe, wrapping her arms around Chloe's shoulder as she kisses her ferociously. "Will you go to prom with me?" Beca whispers between kisses and Chloe smiles and pulls back. "I would love too, My love" Chloe says before going back for another kiss.

So. This took a very long while to update. Apologies. I've been working a lot on Trinity Fallen, and also Assassins touch which is another Bechloe fanfic of you feel like checking it out! I should hopefully be coming back soon to this eventually