My life as of now

~The game~

YES I PLAYED NO IM NOT INNOCENT

Ya I did therefore I deserve everything
I played the worst game with my once good friend "emotion" he has since left me but that's not the point I was offered a spot on the varsity team and I took it in a heart beat cause that's what it takes to be cool right, RIGHT ? ...No...

I played well some said I was one of the best maybe I was maybe I wasn't
but I still played and those who lost to me I am sorry  I trully am but I can't go back I can't undo what I've already done and that's the worst part of it all . This game is frowned upon severely by adults and the ones who gave me my sentence frowned upon me harder then they did on others before they gave me my sentence so it didn't really
Help some things were fabricated some weren't some people I cared about may never know which is which and the other ones don't care anymore...

And who really knows do I...
I don't...
I played for so long I can't remember...
All I know is that I got sentenced worse then sum but not near as bad as others...
so am I exaggerating ? do they still care ? did I really do what they say I did? Do they really miss me? will they ever miss me again?

Do I miss them ? Do I like it here more ? Do I have real friends here or there? Am I sentenced forever? Am I gunna make it? Can I make it ?

YOU WANT THE ANSWER ?
WELL..........
I DONT FUCKING KNOW THE DAMN ANSWER............