My life as of now

ANSWERS

I'm sure you want some answers
But I'm sorry my friends I unfortunately don't know any of the answers to the question I ask of my self I don't know why I'm still here I don't know how much longer I'm gunna be here I don't know how much more I can handle I don't know I just don't fucking know and that's the reason I'm we're I'm at I never really knew completely what I was doing and that's my fault my fault because I was stoopid because I did know how could I not right ? I mean it's so fucking obvious it's right in front of me all I had to do was look carefully if I just looked close enough the mirror was my answer and it's honestly fucking funny you would think out of the countless hours I spent looking in the mirror I would have seen it but I didn't

WHY Why didn't I see it
HOW how come i didn't see it

Idk but again it doesn't matter anymore it's done and past and I can't fix it I used to pride my self on being able to build and fix things but I can't build my self up any more and I can't fix what I've done maybe I'm years to come maybe I can MAYBE ...