My life as of now

Help

Help me pls help me get through this

Hello?

Any one home ?
No! Ok?! Sorry to bother you

I feel like a nuisance on every one I feel like I'm just that annoying little brother feeling this way explains why every one is fading away from me it's the only explanation I'm just annoying aren't I ? I know I am you don't need to answer that

See I'm annoying just like a rhetorical question why ask a damn question that you already know the answer to it's the most pointless thing ever just like me annoying stoopid and pointless

You know it's funny because my friends would always tell me I was annoying and I always thought they were joking but deep down
Inside it hurt me it always did but I never showed it just like now while I'm writing
I'm leading you on I'm not giving you answers I mean I really don't know the answers but I'm not just coming out and saying I'm sad I'm depressed wasn't until now