My life as of now

When i wake up

When I wake up every morning I wake up missing
Missing everything I once had
Such as daily interactions with my friends which have now turned into once an month interactions
I miss my friends every last one of them even the ones I hated cause even arguing with them made me happy but now I just don't see a point to argue I just smile a nod my head so that I can go back to my room and play some more games with my old friends cause that's the only interactions I have with them, my friends have literally become my drug if I can't talk to them and hear there voice when I need to I become so upset I'm addicted to hearing there voice

I miss playing soccer with my friends now I can't play soccer till next school year for a school that I don't even want to be at I miss hearing my name being called Over the stadium speakers I miss my mom cheering me on on the side lines I miss not feeling like a disappointment

I miss my life, my real life, the one were I was with people who actually knew who I was I miss having sleep overs almost every weekend I miss being able to walk thru my back yard and being at my best friends house I miss

I miss every thing that I once had 
And when I wake up it all repeats

I just want to be normal again I miss sitting with people at lunch
I hate Sitting on the stair way during lunch we're no one can see me being sad except the cameras around me