My life as of now

Monster

This is the word that comes to mind when I look in the mirror along with others but this is always the first one that comes to mind MONSTER  it's what I see
I see this because I believe it I don't know how to not believe all I know how is to believe it
I'm a monster because I'm an animal but not in the good way but in the bad way like a disobedient dog or a mean cat or I never learn until one day I mess up one day and bite or scratch someone and then I have to be put down. But by then it's to late I'm already dead and there's nothing to learn about when your dead

I do believe in god ,but as of right now it feels that both my ears are being filled by the devil whispers
And he is to blame for the monster that I see
It's not like I enjoy being sad because I don't I miss being happy but monsters are always mad and sad...
just like me as of right now...