(cancelled) Born To Be Somebody

Morning

Jessica's POV:

"Millie, are you alright in there?" I knock quietly on the bathroom door. The door unlocks and I see Millie standing there all pale.

"You're so pale. Is it the nightmare?" My eyes are wide.

Millie nods and says "I can't seem to shake it off. But maybe after some breakfast I'll be able to."

I look at her with sadness and dread filling my body. "I really hope so, Mills." I know she did something bad to herself in the bathroom but I can't seem to find a way to bring it up right now so I decide to watch her closely until we've had our breakfast and then I'll have a chat with her. I'm so scared that she's gonna kill herself. I don't think she'll do it on purpose but what if she cuts herself and it's so deep that she's gonna bleed out because she's alone.

I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I look away from Millie and take a deep breath to keep the tears from spilling. Luckily it works. "Come on, Mills. I'll make us some eggs and bacon while we waits for the bread to be ready. It has to rise for 10 more minutes before it's ready for baking." Jessica walks towards the kitchen and she hears Millie saying "That sounds great, Jess."

Millie's POV:

When I step out from the bathroom Jessica is standing there. She looks worried. Maybe she knows what I just did. I look at her but she looks away from me and I can see that she takes a few deep breaths. When she turns back to me her eyes look shiny. She must be holding back tears. I'm distracted from this fact a moment later when she mentions eggs and bacon. My stomach growls and I say "That sounds great, Jess."

In my mind I add "You're a way too good friend to me. I don't deserve you."

We enter the kitchen and I find the eggs and the bacon in the fridge while Jessica finds two frying pans. She heats the stove and a minute later the kitchen smells deliciously of bacon and eggs. This is exactly what I need right now.

"Soo.. what do you wanna do today?" Jessica asks me after a few delicious bites.
I think about it before I say "How about some girl time and a movie?"
Jessica nods enthusiastically and says "That is the most fantastic idea I've heard for a long time."
I give her my best and brightest smile which she returns.
We chat about a little bit of everything while we eat the rest of our food. When the dough is done rising we decide to bake it immoderately but then put it aside so we can eat it later.

I do the dishes while Jessica sets up a little beauty salon where we soon will be doing each others hair and nails.

Jessica's POV:
I try to focus on setting up the little beauty salon for me and Millie but I am still filled with dread and fear for Millie's health. I'm not sure what to do. I should probably talk to someone about all of this but I can't seem to bring myself to say the words out loud. It's as if saying it out loud somehow makes it more real and I'm too scared to face the fact that I am truly in risk of losing my best friend to an illness that she can't control. I curse myself for lacking the courage needed to do something right here and right now.

I've been so deep in thoughts that I haven't noticed that Millie has entered her room.
"What are you thinking about, Jess? You looked so far away." She says and sends me a little smile.
I fail in returning her smile but say "I'm just spacing out here. Thinking a little bit about what your Christmas present is gonna be."
I can see in her eyes that she doesn't buy it but she doesn't comment on it. Instead she nods and tells me she really want a pair of Jimmi Choo Sphynx sandals which makes me laugh uncontrollably beacuse there's no way I can afford to give her a pair of shoes that costs almost 600 dollars.
Between my laughing fits I say "You have a wonderful imagination my dear. Suddenly I'm rich or what? Well, I'm sorry but I'm gonna disappoint you regarding these shoes. They won't be your present sweety. Maybe in 10 years when I'm rich I'll buy you a pair. It might not be the Sphynx pair though. I don't think they'll make these anymore at that point. At least not this version of them."
She nods and sends me a big smile and says "It's a deal then. You become rich, you buy me a pair of JC's."
I huff at her. "Sweety, they're Jimmi Choos, you can't just call them JC's. It sounds kind of disrespectful."
She rolls her eyes and says "I agree. I was just trying it out and it definitely does NOT sound good. Sorry."
I pull her in for a big hug and with my head on her shoulder I feel a lump form in my throat.