(cancelled) Born To Be Somebody

Girl Time

Millie's POV:

My girly day with Jessica passes by almost in a blur. It feels like the day had just began when I realised that it was time for dinner.
We spent so much time on the hairstyling, doing our nails and trying every single skin care product I own that we completely lost track of time.
I wonder if Jess was supposed to go home at some point. I realise then that I don't have a clue about what Jess has told her parents. She's been with me for several days now. But I'm not gonna complain. I love spending time with Jess so I'm just gonna enjoy it while she's here.
I'm also guessing that her parents like that she is with me now that my parents are away. Again, again, again. Why are they always away from me? Why are they always anywhere but with me? Sometimes I don't think my parents take my illness serious. Why do they leave if they truly believe that I'm sick?
I have so many thoughts running around in my head that I'm beginning to feel dizzy.
"Jess, how long are you staying?" I turn to look at Jess who is currently in the process of putting on another layer lipgloss. I find the color truly hideous but not on her. She looks so pretty with the hideous purple-bluish lipgloss on. She kind of look like a rockstar goddess.
"Undecided." Jess answers with a big smile. "My parents said it was okay for me to stay here as long as I wanted so you're not alone. Of course you're also very welcome at my place but I thought it would be more fun to be here where there are no parents to keep an eye on us." Her eyes light up so I know that she's got an idea on her mind.
"Don't say par-" I begin but she cuts me off mid sentence when she screams "Paaartyyy this weekend."
She looks so happy and carefree so I can't find it in me to deny her the pleasure of a party even though I'm really not up for it.
"Only if you want to, of course." She adds as an afterthought and sends me a looks that begs me to say yes.
I nod and then turn away from her to roll my eyes because I don't have a spine when it comes to saying no to Jess. Someday I'm gonna have to learn to say no to her wonderful puppy eyes. Today is clearly NOT that day.
"What should we eat for dinner?" I ask in order to get her to think about something else than the party. I can already feel her stressing over what she's gonna wear.
"Pizza?" She asks and I nod immediately and the add "Homemade though."
She nods enthusiastically. She loooveees my homemade pizza. "Pineapple, tomato and cheese for me please."
"Same as always, I can hear." I send her a big smile. "Let's shower and then go to the store. I'll take my parents shower so you can just use mine."
She runs off towards my shower with a thoughtful smile on her face. I'm not sure yet if it means trouble or if she's still thinking about her outfit for the party.
I leave the room quickly and look forward to the scalding hot water that hopefully will loosen up the tensions in my neck and shoulders.

Jess' POV:
I know immediately that Millie doesn't want to throw a party this weekend but she still agrees to it for me.
I'm hoping the party will help her catch a break from her illness. Of course I know that life doesn't work like that but I don't know what else to do and I can't just sit back and do nothing.
When she says I can use her shower while she uses her parents shower I'm so relieved. I hurry towards the shower with tears streaming down my face. I was able to fight them off until I had my back turned towards Millie so I don't think she saw the tears. I don't want her to be mad at herself for making me sad and I know that's what will happen if she sees me crying over her.
She is my best friend and I really don't wanna lose her.
In the shower I feel my head clear up a bit and I decide that I have to talk to my parents about all of it. They know about Millie's illness but they don't know just how serious it is right now. I'll have to skip some classes so I can talk to them at a time where I know Millie is somewhere safe.
I leave the shower with a plan.