Bi-Curious (BoyxBoy)

♠︎ Chapter 23 • Friends Will Be Friends ♠︎

Bi-Curious
Chapter 23
"Friends Will Be Friends"

Ethan

        I wake up the next morning with Charlie in my arms. I smile, watching the slight falls of his chest as he breathes. He said a lot of things last night, some that have been stuck in my head all night.

        He told me he loves me.

        And I want so bad to believe it, I really do, but I need to know for sure before I say anything. He might not have meant it the way I want him to.

        He shifts in my arms and I lace our fingers together. "Good morning."

        "Good morning," Charlie replies, his voice mixed with sleep.

        "How're you feeling?"

        "Just tired, a little dehydrated."

        "No hangover?" I ask, amazed. He was totally smashed last night.

        "I stopped getting hangovers a long time ago." Charlie shrugs, playing with my chest.

        "You gotta teach me that." I smirk. "What do you remember?"

        "Sex." He thinks harder, his eyebrows coming together in concentration. "And that I'd never called you beautiful before aloud."

        I blush. "Y-Yeah."

        "You're beautiful." Charlie closes his eyes and cuddles back into me.

        "Thank you." I kiss his temple. "So are you."

        "Thank you."

        "Charlie," I scoot so I can look him in the eye. "You told me you loved me."

        Charlie's eyes widen slightly. "I... I did?"

        "You said you want to get married."

        He frowns. "I guess I did then."

        "Did you..." I close my eyes, hoping my face doesn't betray me and show how hopeful I am. "Did you mean it?"

        The blond pauses. "I... I don't know."

        I nod and bury my face in his chest, dissatisfied with his answer. He doesn't know? What am I supposed to do with that? Should I be honest with him or keep lying? He's going to find out eventually, I can't keep this to myself forever.

        I hate that he doesn't know. I guess this is how he felt when I was confused about whether or not I wanted to sleep with him. This is so much worse though.

        "So my birthday is coming up." Charlie hums. "We should stay home and have sex all day."

        "Is that what you want?" I ask, though the words are muffled by his skin. How can he just move on after saying something like that? Does he want to pretend it didn't happen? Shouldn't we talk about this?

        "I just want you to spend it with me. I don't really care what we do."

        "Of course I'll spend it with you. Full access to Ethan, no distractions." I force a chuckle, but I don't really feel it.

        "Sounds like the perfect birthday." Charlie hums. "Having full access to the one and only Ethan Liam Dechart sounds like a dream come true."

        "Sure is." I kiss his pectoral.

        "How would you feel about me making that chicken wing meal we talked about way back when?"