Mine (Onhold)

chapter 13

Since the intimate moment harry and I've shared we've gotten very close to one another. It has been wonderful. He usually comes home on time. It's been very good but nonetheless I'm scared. I'm scared because I'm falling truly madly and deeply for that man. He may not be perfect in the eyes of others but to me he's a perfect man. Who would have thought I would have turned out to be a girl I always judged and despised? Why is it that we always fall for those that are wrong for us? I've told alayna and Doruk about him but mostly alayna. She's left university and has settled with drake. Lucky her. She's happy. If this is what she wants that in happy for her. The happiest I've ever been is with him, I guess itz because I've always been focused on my studies but the thing is I'm afraid that harry; a ticking time bomb will blow up any time and ruin everything. And for some reason I feel like that will be soon.

Alayna is coming over. I was getting annoyed so I requested her to go out with me for a walk. Harry won't mind if I take her with me. Plus I needed pads. I just got my period

Harry's pov
Drake kept explaining about the condition in the pack and spreading of the news of my mates arrival. I should happy but I'm not. Zend isn't ready for our world. She won't survive one day and I don't know what I'll do. She can't be a fucking Luna. She can't bear my pups. The truth is I do love her. But the reality of this situation is that she'll be the worst luna ever. She can't protect herself how will she ever protect my pack?
" what am I suppose to do drake? I'm in a very complex situation. She's weak."

" I think you're underestimating her alpha. She's stronger then you take her to be. She's loyal. What more do you need. And to solve your complex problem. The only thing you can do is somehow convince the public that you guys aren't a thing yet."
I felt angry at the way he was talking about my mate
"you must be closer to her than I am. Since you know so fucking much about it" I asked drake angrily. But he laughed pissing me off further but his words did calm me down....a bit
" alpha I have a mate. Remember? I've already marked her.
"yeah I know. I have to remind myself all the time, so I can allow you near her. And besides that I think you are right. I know exactly what to do."
" alpha I trust you. Please do not do anything wrong"
" I won't" I simply replied. I had everything planned out.

I walked in public with two girls next to me one was kissing my neck while the other tugging my shirt and opening my buttons. I won't lie. It wasn't pleasant nor enjoyable. I needed to feel zends lips on me. The way she tugs on my hair is enough to turn me on. My wolf felt guilty. He wasn't willing to cooperate so he completely retreated with a low whimper. Talk about support. I wasn't going to let either kiss my lips nor do anything beyond. But I had to convince people that nothing was going on between us. There were already rumours spreading. I'm an alpha and I have the power to shut them up but it's not my  wolves I'm afraid of but the elders and rogues would do. If ever she's left alone they would rip her to shreds. The way they called my mate weak I won't lie is embarrassing for an alpha like me. One who is greatly feared, and no matter what I won't let anyone effect my reputation mate or not.
But I wasn't ready to see the sight in front of me. The people were easily convinced. They would bow down their head in respect. Respecting their alpha's choice. And this respect and fear is what I lived for. But what i wasn't ready for was zendaya standing there with Alayna.
Fuck. Fuck. I thought she would be home
But as she stared in my eyes with hurt and an emotion I dont understand all I could think of was to comfort her and tell her this was all a facade, hold her body tight  when a single tear slipped from her eye. My wolf was angry at me. But I masked all the emotions and looked at her with the coldest stare. People stopped staring at the tension between us. I did something without thinking. I kissed one of the girl while looking at zendaya. I did that before my brain could comprehend on what I did. But more than the kiss and disappointment, I was extremely worried when she smiled at me and walked pass me with her head held high. fuck that worried me. After she left I soon broke the kiss and went towards my house. Soon drake barged in. He didnt say anything but looked at me angrily. Clearly alayna couldn't keep her mouth shut
" what the fuck man? You've got everything planned out. Is this your way of handling the situation by hurting your mate?"
" know your place before the alpha" how dare he speak to me this way. Friend or not I already know I fucked up
" sorry alpha I came as a friend. Clearly you don't need one. But I think you should know it's been three hours and alayna can't find her. If you find her let us know we're worried about her unlike some people."
that pissed the fuck out of me. I punched drake hard and left. Knowing how fucking right he was but I didn't like being told I was wrong.
Where the fuck is she?