Mine (Onhold)

chapter 14

Seeing harry with  those two girls did something to me that I never thought I'd feel; hurt.  But seeing him kiss one broke my fucking heart into million little pieces. I don't deserve this. My mum always taught me one thing. My father wanted to see in his daughter a strong woman. Not a feeble woman who breaks when something like this was going to happen but right now it truly hurt. So, I ran. The way harry looked at me while kissing that girl told me he kissed her to show me how he isn't the kind of man I was taking him as. I was truly dissapointed in him and myself. After leaving him I ran. I ran till i saw sight of my safe place.

It's as if he knew I was coming, Doruk opened the door and I jumped into his embrace. I began to cry not knowing how much strength it was taking me to control them. He held me tightly and guided me inside while I was still holding onto him. His sister wasn't home, and I was glad. I told him everything that happened. We sat down on the couch. He had his hands on my cheeks and was staring straight into my eyes. Four simple words left his mouth but they sure as hell left an impact.
"he doesn't deserve you"
and then he stared back and forth between my lips and eyes and I knew he was contemplating whether to kiss me or not. Harry kissed a girl so why shouldn't I? Fuck him! and just like that I allowed him to kiss me. To compare it with Harry's kiss this kiss was more towards slow and loving whereas Harry's kiss was rushed desperate and full of desire. Why am I thinking about him right now? I leaned forward holding on to his collars. We kissed for some time. He slightly pushed me down on the sofa and lay down on top of me; hovering over me. I was enjoying it till I felt a weird emotion seeping through my head Like anger. Im not quite sure but I was busy kissing him with occasional breaks when soon he was pulled off of me. More like shoved. Angry for being intruded from my escape from the pain, I saw Harry standing there with crimson red eyes staring at us. His palms bleeding due to the pressure with which his nails were digging in his hands. His eyes were blood shot. I sure as hell was frightened but the way he turned towards Doruks body, I could tell that shit was going to happen

" harry stop. What the hell is wrong with you? What the hell are you doing here? Shouldn't you be occupied right now" I couldn't help but yell at him. Rather than answering he slightly turned his head with a look telling me to shut the fuck up. When doruk tried to get up he kicked him hard, bent down and punched the fuck out of him. I couldn't take it. The one friend I had was getting beaten up by Harry.
" harry stop you're going to kill him. Please"

"get. The. Fuck. Out. Of. Here" his words were full of anger and hatred. He wasn't taking this shit but I wasn't going to let him hurt an innocent soul in front of me. As much as I hated him right now I needed to save my friend. So I did the one thing that I've realised calms him down. Something he enjoys I hugged him from the back kneeling behind him
"harry you're scaring me. Please stop. You're going to kill him. I won't be able to live with my self if something happens to him. Let him go please I beg you I'll do anything you ask" I couldn't help the tears from slipping through my eyes but it sure as hell put him to ease. He asked Doruk to leave and never return.
Before leaving,  he stood by the door smirked at harry causing harry to become rigid but he held onto my hands preventing himself from doing anything. Harry simply took my hand and led me to the familiar route leading to his house. I'm so fucking screwed. Kahretsin (fuck)

Harry's pov
I'm fucking livid right now. I searched for zendaya for sometime. I soon caught her scent near the outskirts of the pack. Now the thing about alphas is they tend to feel more. Unlike the other wolves marking is compulsory however even without the mark we feel things. Imagine how it is when you finally mate. While I was walking I felt a tingling sensation on my lips. Zendaya was fucking kissing another person. I was fucking pissed and my wolf was growling trying to take control. Who the fuck in my pack had the audacity to touch my fucking mate!! I was going to kill this motherfucker and then yell at zendaya for kissing another guy. I know I couldn't complain since she saw me kiss another girl but she is fucking Mine. Bipolar,hipocracy or what ever the fuck you want to call it I don't give two fucks. Walking in a strange house I opened the door to see a guy on top of zendaya and both kissing each other and I could feel my wolf's thirst for drinking his blood but the anger was heightened when I smelt the guy.
A Rogue.
I pushed him off zendaya and stared at her. She was afraid but I was too fucking angry to care. I caught my mate making out with a rogue.    My mate; the mate of an alpha had the audacity to kiss another guy. After that I lost it everything went black. I was finding pleasure and satisfaction in seeing the rogues blood but I soon felt zendaya embrace and her frightened voice. I slightly calmed down knowing how scared she was. I told the bastard to leave. But before he left his words once again increased my anger
" she tastes so fucking sweet. I'll make her mine. I'll be back for her" smirking as he mind linked me. I took hold of her hand and speedily walked towards our house. I ran straight towards my bedroom knowing very well she was following. I began pacing back and forth.
"what's his name? " I asked trying to control my anger
"Doruk" she simply answered. Oh so they are on first name basis already. I couldn't control the jealousy. The way she wasn't feeling guilty threw me on the edge
"how long have you fucking known him"
"Since the day we fought about me leaving "
" you've been seeing this guy since so fucking long!! why am I hearing about this right now. tell me? Wait...... So that day when you came back and I asked you who you were with you were with that motherfucker!!?" I picked the lamp and threw it on the wall breaking it into a million little pieces. She moved away afraid.
"harry-"
"don't fucking harry me, answer my damn question. omg  Zendaya how many. Times. Have you kissed him?"

"once" she moved closer to me but I was afraid I'd hurt her and that's exactly what I did. I held her upper arm tight pushing her against the wall
"zendaya don't lie to me" I asked as calmly as I could. She tried to touch me but I pushed both of her hands above her head
"harry I promise I've kissed him today but only because you fucking kissed a girl first. What about that huh? Go ahead justify your fucking actions!"
She began to yell as well trying to break free but she was just adding fuel to the fire.
"beacause I fucking can!! "
She sighed, tired of this conversation
"then why can't I Harry? " she asked sadly. "Don't be a fucking hypocrite. I get to do and be with whom ever I want."
Taking a deep ass breath I simply replied "you're fucking mine that's why"
"Harry what are we? I dont get it. Sometimes-"
I cut her off kissing her. Not getting a response from her I was hurt
" zend I'm fucking in love with you and seeing how much you mean to me makes me do irrational things.
Tell me do you love me?" I asked her. Afraid of her reply since she wasn't a werewolf. She might not feel the same.

"unfortunately I do love you and fuck it gets stronger day by day if that's possible." she smiled at me. I let go of her hands staring deep into her eyes. Both our eyes full of lust. At that moment I knew how much I fucking needed her, not just adrian. With that I simply said three words that changed our life. For better or worse, that's still to be decided
" then show me"