Mine (Onhold)

chapter 17

The pack doctor came asking me what happened. I didn't tell him much but enough.  he thought she had a panic attack because of seeing me change in a wolf. Fanculo!
I forgot about that. He left after checking her and gave a light injection, telling me to make sure not to scare her when she wakes up. I sat next to her pissed at Brian. Drake came and I told him to keep an eye on Brian. I had so much on my fucking plate right now.
I had to deal with zendaya with the meeting, Brian, vampires. Literally the pressure was getting to me. Shower that's what I needed. Standing in the shower I went through everything all the events that took place today. He touched my mate in front of me. What kind of alpha was I. Forget zendaya I won't be able to forgive my self. This was all too much.

As soon as I went outside zendaya was awake. Her back was against the head board knees raised and her head between her hands. She was shaking. I walked towards her. As soon I touched her shoulder lightly she looked up and moved away in fear. Fear that I wish was for Brian but was for me.
I sat next to her afraid she'll move further away but she didn't. She looked lost scared terrified all because I couldn't be mate enough and it was killing me. As soon as I was about to apologize, I opened my mouth but she cut me off
"why?" her voice broken
"I'm sorry I didn't think he would-"
"harry That's it I'm so fucking done with you. One minute you kiss a girl in front of me. Your hypocritical ass can't tolerate it when I kiss a boy then you become all possessive saying I'm yours and that you love me and then you fucking humiliate me in front of everyone by allowing another guy to fucking touch me!!" "I'm so fucking done with you. I'm leaving is that clear. I'm not a weak girl who needs a man in her life. I gave you myself and you had the audacity to do this to me."
I didnt know what to say to that.

Zendaya pov
I waited for him to say something but he didn't. I'm so done. I got up to leave but he tried to grab my hand. "don't you fucking touch me" he moved his hand away
"where are you going" ugh he's so frustrating. Why does he care
" to find Doruk. I'm sure he will willingly take me back to my university"
"ZENDAYA this is the last time I'm saying this, stay away from Doruk!! Have I made my self clear or I promise you I will kill him in front of you"
I could hear the venom in his voice but I was beyond angry to take his threat into consideration.
" actually while I'm at it I'll make sure he fucking touches me in front of you since you don't give a göt bok  about me." satisfied by the reaction I got from him. I opened the door but soon a hand from behind me shut it with so much force that I was afraid it would break. "harry move"  I tried to open the door but by my waist I was turned around. I swear to you if looks could kill I would be dead by now. Literally he wasn't even blinking just stating at me with anger that I've  never ever seen before. I was scared. His grip on my neck tightened. His nails elongated,his eyes were red. He moved his head towards me nibbled my ear and spoke  "sweetheart I dare you try walking out of that door and see how many lives I put in danger for you. You are MINE!! and I promise you I will not fucking hesitate rather I'll make you watch. No one disrespects the alpha and no one tries to take the alphas mate."
He nibbled  my ear and that's when realisation hit me. I wasn't hallucinating. He actually turned into a wolf. My breathing began to quicken. I could see a flash of worry in his eyes. God he's bipolar. He quickly moved his hand from my neck thinking he was choking me but didn't move back. I started drawing in deep breaths. My breathing pace quickened
"zendaya what's wrong. Are you OK?  Look at me" I wasn't replying so he held my chin forcing me to look at him. His eyes were back to normal. He was worried. I could see how his posture was  tense
"you...i... "
Soon my legs began to give out he quickly held my waist preventing me from falling and I buried my head on his chest. I was about to have a panic attack.
"Harry I can't breathe" I started crying. I heard him cuss, soon I was lifted. He sat on the edge of the bed with me spread on top of him. I still had one hand around his neck. "shh breathe. It's okay". But I could hear the panic in his voice.
"you... Wolf" his body soon became stiff. He looked down at me staring at my eyes as if realization hit him he rubbed my arm and the other cupped my check. " I'll explain everything mi amore but right now I need you to focus on your breathing"

i dont know how long we sat in that position, him saying soothing words and me trying to calm my breathing down. My body began to tremble. This had never happened to me before which made me more fearful. I held onto him afraid to let go. I didn't know what it was but it was like my body had poison in it. I wanted to close my eyes but I felt as if I would never wake up. Soon I heard the door open. I could feel my body becoming numb. As soon as I slightly turned my head a man I had never seen before walked in. I don't know if I was hallucinating or not but I swear I saw light around him.
"I called Bennett not you. Where is she?"
"she couldn't make it alpha. That's why I'm here" he had a very serious tone. He walked towards me
" you must be zendaya, quite a beauty aren't you?" I heard harry growl and move my body closer to his "mine" he simply said.
The other guy simply smiled. He moved his hand towards me like he was about to grab me. But I in fear hid my face in Harry's chest
"don't touch her!" harry yelled at him. But that guy didn't seem effected. Like he was expecting this reaction.
"alpha I apologize but I can not see what's wrong till I touch her"
He growled but slightly nodded. Fear began to rise in me again but he told me its alright and though I shouldn't I trusted him. I slightly shifted in Harry's lap. My butt was on Harry's thighs. Head still resting on Harry's shoulder but my body was now straight in front of the guy. I still wasn't breathing properly but soon pain spread in my body. I arched my back and whimpered grabbing harry and whimpered his name.
"what's happening to her?" harry asked but the guy didn't reply, he moved his hand ontop of my shirt and then inside keeping it on my stomach. I could feel Harry's  grip on me tighten. Keeping his anger at bay. His hand was warm on my stomach and he could sense Harry's frustration as well  "explain what happened." he asked me but I felt If I spoke I'd lose my control over my breathing. I think harry understood so he began to explain. " she might have had a panic attack at the start but the fact that her body is becoming weightless and how she's become weaker and can't control her breathing is im afraid something else. Did you give her a medicine before?"
"the pack doctor came and did but what does that have to do with anything"
"she's human alpha even your mildest medicine will be too heavy on her body. It's actually the medicine. Is damaging and hurting her insides"
" wait ...what? fuck do something"
"yes alpha. Sweetheart this may hurt a bit but you'll feel better soon" he moved me so I was laying on my side facing towards harry"
"with your permission alpha"
I looked up at harry. He nodded staring at me with loving eyes. I could tell how hard it was for him. I was about to turn to see what he was about to do but harry stopped me asking me to look at him. I soon felt my shirt cut from my side. Harry wasn't enjoying this but neither was I but I couldn't handle this anymore so I was willing to go through whatever was about to happen.
I felt one hand slip inside my shirt on top of one of my chest while the other on my back. Harry drew in a sharp breath not liking the guys hand on my body. I wanted to flinch but that takes too much energy. "I love you baby" I heard harry speak. I looked down as I saw a golden glow inside my shirt where his hand was touching. I looked up at harry with a confused look. He had worry, pain and an apologetic look on his face. And soon my eyes widened. I tried to move my body away from his pressing hands as I felt a sudden tightening and burning sensation in my body increasing by the second. I tried to move away but Harry's grip on my shoulder and thighs and the guys pressure on my back and chest prevented me. I screamed. "please stop it hurts" I screamed again but soon my body drowned into darkness and my eyes began to close till I was completely engulfed in darkness.