Cold Comfort »Z.M.« ✔️

4."Not that it isn't ruined already."

•12.01.•

I wake up when someone pats my shoulder.

"Sis, wake up. It's eight." I hear a sweet voice. My eyes flash open.

"WHAT?" I shout looking at the person. Ruth. She smiles at me, realising that I've slept in.

"Get ready, I'll give you a ride." she offers and goes away. I get out of the bed and dress up. Wear some black ripped jeans and a black tank top. I throw a black leather jacket on my shoulders, grab my backpack, throw some notebooks in it, take my purse with money and go downstairs. On the way downstairs I put my hair into a messy bun. I go in the kitchen and grab a banana. I leave the kitchen and open the banana, deciding that I'll eat it now rather than later. Begin to eat it. SHIT, forgot my phone. I run upstairs and take my phone, but then slowly walk downstairs. Ruth is waiting for me. We both go outside.

The ride to school is silent. I thank her for the ride and step outside. Everyone is looking at me which makes me feel weird. I walk to the school. My heart's racing. I enter the school. A girl comes up to me, stands in front of me. Nope. No way, she's not going to be a bitch now!

"Hey, welcome here, whoever you are. But remember, don't fuck with Zayn, he's mine." she smiles at me and pats my cheek. I shove her hand off of my face.

"Have you fucked him yet?" I ask. She looks seriously offended by my question.

"Not yet. He doesn't let me." she answers. I can't actually get if she is sad about that or mad about me asking that.

"He's the one with black hair?" I ask again even though I know exactly who he is. She nods.

"You've seen him. He has dark hickeys on his neck. Said some girl gave him them by handcuffing him so he couldn't get away. But I don't believe him, you know. He's a bad boy, I understand. But I want his attention, even if it's just for a little bit." she admits to me. I nod. Do I tell her what happened?

"Uh, which class are you in?" I ask randomly. Maybe she can be my first friend. Even though she was kind of bitchy in the beginning.

"Yours. Come, I'll show you." she smiles brightly. It's like her mood completely changed.

"Okay, so back to Zayn. What if he actually told the truth?" I ask as we walk to the class together. She sighs.

"Do you really think that he wouldn't lie to his 'girlfriend' about having sex with other girls?" she asks making it sound like he really does it all the time. I nod.

"He didn't tell me he had a girlfriend so things got out of control. Well, Liam's my cousin. And he left me at Zayn's when he had to go home for a serious talk. I wanted to take his drugs but he didn't let me so I took his handcuffs while he didn't see. And when he was searching for them I handcuffed him. He was a bit high and didn't know what was happening. Everything happened so fast and then he was like, I bet my girlfriend will break up with me, or something like that and I was super shocked, because I wouldn't have done that if I knew you two were together." I quietly explain. She looks shocked. Well, I'd be too. We enter the class.

"So... You... I don't understand. Do you want him?" she asks, "Because I know he'd choose you over me since you're new, fresh meanwhile I'm already old and used by other of his dudes." she seems sad.

"I don't actually know... It's like, you never know what'll happen. I just want drugs from him for now, that's it. Though, he's cute." I admit. We sit together.

"I can get you those drugs. He gives me. Only it'll take some money. He gives to Liam for free, I can only dream of that." she rolls her eyes in annoyance. I smile.

"Thanks, I'll get the money. How much does it cost?" I whisper. She shrugs.

"Let's say, if you take one gram weed then it's five pounds. If you take one gram of something stronger like.. LSD.. Then it's twenty?" she said. I take my purse out of my bag. Forty pounds, here you go. I give them to her. She raises her eyebrows as she takes the money.

"Two grams LSD?" she asks. I nod. Put my purse back in the bag.

"Okay, I hope he has it on him. I can try to find him now. Wait for me here, sweetie." she smiles and gets up. She leaves the classroom. I get ready for the lesson and take my phone.

"Hey. Heard you're talking about Zayn with Cheryl. You like him already?" a girl turns around from front. I look at her. And smile.

"None of your business, cutie. Better keep your mouth shut and your eyes in your notebook." I answer. Her smile fades and she turns back around shyly. Everyone who is in the class laugh. After a while Cheryl comes back. She gives me two pieces of LSD and all the money that I gave her.

"He gave them for free?" I shockingly ask taking them. She nods.

"He said it was for not dumping him. Because I told him that I believe him about handcuffing and won't dump him. I didn't tell him that you told me. He gave me four so I split it for you and me." she whispers. I smile. I stuff the money in my backpack and swallow one piece of LSD. Cheryl looks at me shocked. I raise one eyebrow and then put on my tongue the second one.

"I'm so dead. He knows the difference when you're not high and when you're high... Even when you tell him that you're not high... Oh my god, he'll know that I gave you drugs and if teachers-"

"Everything will be fine." I slowly interrupt her. Her eyes widen. Oh shit, Zayn and Liam comes in. They both come to us. I stand up and hug Zayn.

"Happy birthday, sunshine!" I squeal. Oh wait, is it his birthday though? I don't know.

"Shut up! How did you know that?" Zayn pulls away frowning, "Did Liam tell you?" he asks. My mouth falls agape.

"I didn't know." I whisper back and hug Liam.

"Kayla, are you high?" Zayn chuckles. I look at him dead serious.

"Does it look like?" I ask sitting back down. Shit, this is hell of a struggle when I have to act that I'm not.

"Yes, definitely. And sounds too. Cheryl, mind explaining?" Zayn asks leaning against the table. But then he shakes his head, "Kayla did tell you about handcuffing me, didn't she? And you're running after her. But listen, I don't need the money for the drugs, because apparently it is all in her not you but! You're not getting any drugs anymore. I fucking tried to stop her from using drugs and you just pushed her in the hole I was trying to cover." he seems angry with what I did and not really her. I place my hand on his hand.

"Wake up, Zee. You won't save me from stupid drugs. Eventually I'll find someone who will give me them." I say and turn to Liam. He nods notifying that he agrees. Great.

"At least they won't be from me and I'll be relieved, because I'll know that I wasn't the one who ruined your whole life. Not that it isn't ruined already." he spits back and leaves with that. And that hurt. A lot.