Red&Blue (Raphxleo) (Leoxraph)

embarrassment

Just in case u guys don't pick up. This story is basically a part to to chapter 3:coma so yeah this is what happens directly after chapter 3

Leo's P.O.V

I sense raph asleep.

"Raph," I squeak softly. I'm almost inaudible. He doesn't hear me, I'm not surprised he didn't. I feel so useless I can't do anything. I can't even get up from this bed. I almost have no control over my own body. I sense myself giving up. I'll just lie in the fucking dark. So stupid.

I need to tell raph I'm awake. He was so scared for me.

it's okay raph I'm awake. I'm here, you don't have to stress about me anymore, it's fine. I just wanna get noticed by someone anyone. I just wanna be h-

Raph's moving.

He lets off a big sigh, getting up from his fold-up chair. I hear the loud cracks from his body as he stretches. At least I hope that's what he's doing. My eyes are still closed. I've just realized. How have I not opened my eyes in the past thirty minutes?

I'm shocked to see raph just staring at me. He notices my eyes open and I catch him off guard as he stumbles backwards in my surprise. He almost falls over his drum set, that's in the corner of his room. They make loud and obnoxious sounds filling the room with startling echoes. He quickly turns around trying to mute the sounds emitting from the loud instrument. Raph turns to face me after suppressing the drum set.

"Leo," raph whispers. He standing, with his back straight and his hands inching towards me. I see his eyes get watery and his whole posture changes; His whole aura changes it transformed into a more vulnerable and caring state.

"Leo I'm so..." he runs to me and squeezes my body, tightly. "I don't know what to say or how to say something." Raph begins to sob into my chest his tears are beginning to flood my blanket. "I'd thought I would lose you. I thought you wouldn't wake up. I was so lost. I was so empty, so confused. When you went out I felt like you took a piece of me with you. don't ever leave me again. I care too much about you. don't ever scare me again. Leo, you don't realize how much of a relief it is just to hear your voice. To see your eyes. To know that you're not dead."

I hear raph attempt to say more, but his breathes are like quick rapid hiccups. Every time raph tries to say something they're quickly interrupted by his rapid breathing. He eventually gives up on speaking and just sinks into my body. Weeping and crying into my chest.

I'm so sorry raph. I'm so sorry that I left you alone like this.

Tears are racing down my cheeks falling on the pillow behind me.

"L-L-L-Leo," his words are being interrupted by swift inhales, "Say something." He lifts his body from my chest and slowly turns his head towards me. He cups my head in his hands and stares into my eyes. He's still sobbing. Standing beside me, bending over with his body hovering over mine.

His face is full of tears. it really hurts to see my brother in such pain. I don't know how to stop your tears but I can help cure them.

"it's okay," my voice comes out very scratchy, weak and inaudible.

Raph's whole body language changes. it's almost like someone lifted 1 000 pounds off his back. He collapses on top of me, with his arms we wrap around me. His tears become uncontrollable.

I'm feeling unbelievably guilty right now. How could I leave raph? He must've been so scared, me being asleep for just over a week. I'm so selfish. Just think how my other brothers feel right now. the most immune sibling to emotions is hysterically weeping over my wake. I just want things to be back to normal. Fighting the krang, the foot, fighting with my brothers, training with sensei, I miss It all too much.