Red&Blue (Raphxleo) (Leoxraph)

Confrontation

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Raph's P.O.V

Why am I so stupid? What if he tells the others. No one's gonna want to talk to me again. I like my own brother. I'm absolutely disgusting for feeling this way. Incest is so highly frowned upon in today's society. What will splinter think? My whole entire family doesn't want to talk to me. Splinter is already disappointed enough in me as it already is. If he found out how I feel about Leo, he's gonna never want to even see me again; he's already not even talking to me.

Leo is the reason for the past few bad days. The mess of emotions I had to go through. The amount of worry and stress I had for him was exponential. Emotionally, I'm so restless. I just want to lay in this bed for the rest of the day. To actually not think about anything for the next few hours would be great.

I'm in my room. it's dark, almost too dark. It's to the point where I can't decipher between my eyes being open or closed. I'm laying on my bed, alone. The room is cold and quiet. The bed I lay in is now warm, Due to the heat of my body. But, if I were to move my arms a little bit away from it's warmed up position my body would shiver. So I lay still conserving my warmed up bed.

this beds so comfortable. I just want to sleep. lay quiet in my dreams not thinking about anything. let my mind run loose, But I can't. I've grown accustomed to this new life cycle that I have let consume me.

wake up.

go check up on Leo.

hygiene, while thinking about Leo.

check up on Leo.

Avoid contact with family while preparing Breakfast.

Eat and worry about Leo.

Go and talk to Leo.

Sit quietly next to Leo.

go prepare lunch.

Eat.

argue with splinter as he tries to reason with me and teach one of his morals.

go back to my room.

stay in there till I fall asleep.

In the end, though I'm alright with it. I guess everything comes with a price and that includes Leo waking up.

I wonder how the check-up went. Hopefully, he's alright and his head has fully healed.

I need to get out of here. Try to distract myself. I could try my magazine's. maybe that will help me get over this whole situation. it's just a phase. Right? I really hate myself right now. I just hate how I feel about everything. How I left almost all my relationships shattered. I'm such an idiot.

I miss everything. I miss just waking up to sensei getting mad. Out training sessions. Leonardo's annoying leadership title. Mikey's childish personality. How much Donnie is stuck up. April, Cassie I miss their voices, their presence. I just want everything to go back to normal. I want my life back. I want to fight krang. Plot plans to take down the Shredder and his henchmen. Nothing will go back to what it was as long as I keep feeling this way about Leo.

I let off a big annoyed sigh.

Even when Leo's safe I'm still obsessed with him.

And why is that?

How did you feel about Leo before he went in a coma before he got beat up by the shredder?

I don't, I can't remember. My mind has locked away any other memories of me feeling about him in any other way.