Midnight Lovers

Chap 28

The honeymoon vacation is over and you're finally back to work. Harlyn took a few days as he wanted to meet his parents. He mentioned it was urgent. You're all alone at home and "Honey! I'm home!!"

You sprinted as you hear his voice from where you're standing. He's holding a bouquet of white roses and "Hi? I miss you!!" He said.

You take the flower from him and put it down. You missed of being in his arms. "Me too! Thank you for this!"

"It's not a problem."

You look at him and stare at his face for a few seconds. He seems worried and you wonder what is he hiding. Is it about what his parents told him?

"Why? What's up with that face?" You asked. You notice that he force a smile and shook his head. "Nothing. I'm just tired." He said to you.

You know there's something that's on his mind where he can't say it. "Why? Is it bout me? It's been 8 weeks since I got pregnant. Don't tell me they're going take this child?" You said. He sighed before cupping your cheeks with his hands. "No. Not about you. Can we just talk about this tomorrow?  I'm sorry."

He's heading upstairs and you follow him. He doesn't say a word after he's got out of the bathroom. "Night."You whispered. He's already sleeping peacefully next to you. You can't sleep as anxiety kicks in. You wonder if it's a bad news? Or it's a suprise?

You head downstairs at 4 am. You switch on the light and then open the refrigerator. "I'm hungry!" You said. While you're complaining how your stomach keeps growling, you notice there's a note on the table.You saw him writing something in the middle of the night.

Dear Helena, I know this is going to break your heart but this is for the best. I came home to meet my parents and they want me to decide whether to leave you or they're going to take the child from us. I don't know why but, probabaly it's a tradition. But, I've a feeling we're in danger. I can't choose both but, I guess, I'll leave you and you can raise the child. I'll come over to visit him but I can't be there for you whole the time. I'm sorry.

You knew it. You're disappointed with it but he know, you're excited for your first baby. It's going to be a hell for you if you can't see or take care of your very first child. But the thought of him leaving you for this makes you sad. Why can't you and him just stay together? Why does life being cruel?

"Helena."

You wipes your tears away and turned to him. "Hey. I'm just uh hungry." You said to him. "You just read the letter? I know I'm being a coward but if I told you, face to face, it's hurtful."

"I get it. I know. This is hard for you to decide. I guess, maybe we're not meant to be together, after all. I don't regret everything. But, I'm just sad, why can't I be happy just for a while? I admit that I really love this child but, I lost, a half part of me when you said you're going to leave me.... Can we just stay together?"

"I can't. I never saw this coming. I thought that we're going to be happy and have kids but, this is it, the reality. We can't run away or be against the fate."

"When you're leaving?"

"Tomorrow."

"What?? I mean, you came home yesterday and now you're going to leave? Wow, how fucking great its, Harlyn!" You said. You try to calm down but no, it's the time to see where you really stand in his life. "Please, you have to understand it. Yes, I just got back. I know I can't leave you like this as you're almost getting birth... I know, I act like a total dick to you. I've got my reasons."

"Enough! Those reasons are bullshit! Shut up and stop it! Now, are we getting a divorce? Tell me, Harlyn! TELL ME!"

"Yes." He sighed. He avoided looking in your eyes. "Fine. If that's what you want, okay. I don't want to see your fucking face anymore and don't ever get near my child! I'm done. I'm so done. Maybe this is my life and I'll never be good enough. Guess everyone hates me. "

You left him alone in the kitchen. You thought that he's going to chase after you but he's not. He's still standing there, motionless.

"Go fuck yourself. You're a liability and honestly, I don't even need you. Anymore...." That's his last words before you leave the damn house. "Fine. Wish granted and I'm leaving now! Harlyn, go to hell!" You slapped him before getting into the car.