Before I was Heda

May She Reign

5 years later
Lexa's POV
Today is my tenth birthday. Costia gave me a gift it was sweet she brought me a candle to add to my collection now that was a gift I loved the most. When we first arrived at Polis 5 years ago I had nightmares a lot so Indra brought me a candle and my love for them grew something about the fire lit room brings me peace I hope to one day have enough candles to cover my whole room. Indra has a daughter now her name is Gaia she's 4 almost 5 now.

Indra has had issues with her combat training. Little Gaia is strong willed and refuses to fight she's only 4 and knows she wants to be a Fleimkepa not a warrior. Indra was disappointed to say the least. I still remember Indra before she was a warrior all her sweetness and loving personality when my mother was her friend and she had Grey Worm. Now she's one of the best warriors at Polis her and Titus trained harder than anyone else here and it paid off Indra is fierce and strong and quite honestly terrifying but she's still just Indra to me. 2 years ago I made second to an amazing warrior and mentor Anya she is not much older than Costia I believe she's 16 . Anya has taught me so much I have truly learned more than I thought possible when I first arrived. I'm the first in my class Titus believes that Fraya our current Heda will return to the commanders soon. Therefore the conclave could begin at anytime now! It still scares me I know what I will have to do to survive. I have to I promised her I promised my mother I would! I sometimes wonder about her what has become of her is she even still alive? I don't remember her that well but I will never forget her face. The older I get the more Gustus says I look more and more like my father which is fair considering I look nothing like my mother. She has long blonde hair and bluish green eyes. I have dark brown hair and bright green eyes and according to Gustus I'm the spitting image of the great Khal Drogo. I don't remember him at all not even his face. I sigh remembering my parents it's been so many years now so much has changed Polis is my home now and I'm no longer Alexandra Targaryen. I am now just Lexa.. Lexa Com Trikru! I am a warrior and I will be the next Heda! (Lexa?..... Lexa) I am pulled from my thoughts and before I have a chance to see who was calling me I am tackled to the ground. I look up to see Costia giggling (I pinned you that never happens Lexa her giggle fit continues and one quick move Lexa flips them.) Well Costia the only reason you pinned me is because I was simply not paying attention. ( Smart Lex.. you totally shouldn't be paying attention to your surroundings in Polis. Because nothing bad has ever happened to anyone here! Costia rolls her eyes at the younger girl.) I sigh realising Costia is now worried about me. I've made my best friend worry great going Lexa you know how sensitive she is to anyone being ambushed! Look Costia I am sorry I just got distracted by my thoughts it's my birthday and well I can't help but think about all that's happened in the last several years. I've mastered all my combat training. I have you! I lost my mother and I barely remember her and between you and I Titus told me something that I am not supposed to know but Fraya is evidentially sick and they are not sure how long until she passes on to the commanders. (Oh no Lexa that means the conclave! Costia swallows hard. She stares into Lexa's green eyes please don't die!) Costia I cannot make you a promise that I may not be able to keep. I'm a strong fighter so there is a good chance I will win but Luna is a strong fighter like me and she will also be in the conclave. If I do win and become Heda will you still be my Friend? (Costia gives Lexa a side smile. Of course Lexa you are my best friend always I will always be by your side even when you become the Great Commander!) Lexa smiles at the older girl. You know if I become Heda I can truly keep you safe like I promised the day we met! (Come on Lexa lets get going Indra is waiting for us in the training room she sent me to find you!) Well we better go than we both know how Indra gets when we make her late. Both girls giggle and walk away. Costia grabs Lexa's hand to drag her along. When they finally reach the training room they drop hands and walk in Lexa wipes away any form of emotion the minute she enters the room. (Costia good you found her. Happy Birthday my dearest Lexa your mother would be so proud of the woman you are becoming beautiful and strong. Indra rubs her thumb over Lexa's cheek. Now enough of that it's time to fight! Indra tosses Lexa 2 wooden sticks now come at me little Natblida! Indra looks at Lexa with a smirk.) Lexa gets in her offensive position and charges at Indra dodging her every blow until finally Lexa goes for Indra's knees and sweeps her off her feet. Lexa pins Indra before she looks up at Costia and smirks. I guess I can beat anyone Lexa says cockily but in one swoop Lexa's on her back. (Never take your eyes off your opponent until they are dead because the moment you think you won and get cocky about it you will be the one who's dead!) I'm sorry Indra I just want to be the best warrior I can be but I feel like somethings missing when I fight almost like I don't have a purpose! (Lexa now you listen to me. Your mother did not send you away because you didn't have a purpose Titus did not search for you without a purpose everything that has gotten you here is your purpose Lexa you just have to believe in yourself because you are your own worst enemy. If I didn't think you were worth it I would not have risked my own life to comfort you all those years ago back in Astapor.) Indra I..I... I'm sorry you risked your life for me! (Lexa I never regretted it not once because you are the reason that I have this life a free life and I will protect you now and always I wish I could have protected you then but I will never let it happen again!) Indra I just realised I never thanked you for all those nights and even after my mother rescued us you fought for me you gave up your love for me and I am forever grateful to you. (Indra smiles and nods at the young girl and then turns her attention to the older girl. Costia I have news it seems your Aunt Elisabeth has died and her oldest daughter Nia moves to take the throne of Azgeda I know it's a tough subject but Titus thinks you should take the throne. We have hundreds of Warriors willing to fight they believe you to be the rightful Queen. Now if you agree you must start being a queen now if you want the Azgeda warriors to accept you it's time. You are already the Queen of Edinburgh now it's time to take back your fathers legacy as well. You are the rightful heir to both kingdoms Costia so what will it be?) both Lexa and Indra look at the bewildered girl standing before them.

Lexa opens her mouth to interject but is cut off by Costia (If I say No what will happen?) Indra looks at the floor for a moment before meeting the 12 year olds eyes. Costia honestly Edinburgh will fall to Nia and the Azgeda will most likely come for you!) Lexa looks at Indra with a stern look. We will protect her no matter what her choice. She's been in danger since she was an infant after her father died and even more when her mother was killed when she was 7 and when Titus asked her to take back Edinburgh she did that she is only here with us now because Edinburgh will not except a Queen so young not yet anyways so why would Azgeda? (Lexa stay out of this it is not your place. Now Costia dear what is your choice?) Costia looks at Lexa knowing she will not like her choice. (Yes I will take the Azgeda Throne from my cousin!)

Lexa feels defeated I can feel her words stabbing at my chest. She knows how bad it was when we took back Edinburgh. It broke her why on earth would she do this? I see I say in nearly a whisper well Queen Costia I guess now I must go tell Titus your answer.

With that I walked away not looking back. When the crisp outside air hits my face I can breathe again I hadn't realised I was holding my breath "sigh" I look up at the night sky and my mothers face comes to my mind I stare at the bright crescent moon in the sky so beautiful I wonder what it's like up there to be surrounded by the stars I bet it's peaceful no blood shed just everyone living in peace. What a birthday I soon drift off into a deep sleep.