Before I was Heda

Fire & Ice

Lexa's POV
I walk into Costia's room. I'm about to tell her that her infant daughter is going to have to go away. Costia Is walking around holding her daughter. She looks so content and happy with that baby in her arms I can't help but smile my smile quickly fades when I remember exactly why I'm here. This is going to be difficult.

Hey Cos!! Can we talk please? ( Hey Lexa of course we can talk.) Costia smiles up at me. It makes my heart sink. I have to tell you something. It's important I love you and I care for you so just know I'm only looking out for your best Interest. (Lexa what is it. Your worrying me a bit!) I sigh and rub my temples. This isn't easy but Roan has brought news. Your child's life is in danger. Nia wants her dead that's why she was left in the woods alone. No one but a few people know she's still alive. I swallow the lump in my throat. If you want her to stay alive. She can't stay with any of us. There's a woman named Cleo from Louwoda Klironkru. She is willing to take your daughter in as her own. (Lexa!!! You can't be serious she's my child no one can protect her like I can. You and Roan are two of the best warriors. No one will harm her we won't let them. She's mine!)

Costia it's what's best for her.... Costia cut me off before I could finish speaking. (How could you possibly know what's best for her your not her mother. Your opinion is invalid!) her words were harsh. I know she's just upset. Costia the simple fact is I am Heda if I want to send her away or inform Titus of her Nightblood. I can but I will not be that way. Instead I'm here asking you to hear me out on this. Roan agreed with me on this. Do you remember that day We met in those woods when I was 5?
(Yes! Of course I do but what does that have to do with my daughter?) I rub the back of my neck before speaking. I've told you before that my mother was/is a Queen. Well much like your child I was born the daughter of Daenerys Targaryen. The mother of Dragons the only true Queen of the seven kingdoms. That was until I was born. My father was a Dothraki Khal. A warlord of his tribe a very well known and feared Man. When I was born I was a twin my brother was killed by a vengeful witch. After my brothers death my parents decided that I wasn't safe with them. Both my parents decided to hide the fact that I was their child. They planned to send me away when I was 6. As you well know that didn't happen. When I was 3 my father was killed trying to save me. I was captured by some very bad men. I've never told anyone this but I was raped. I felt so weak and helpless I was raped every day at the age of 3 by very cruel men. I look up at Costia she has tears in her eyes staring intently. My mother finally found me in the city of Astapor 6 months later. My mother fed a few men to her Dragons and crucified the other 3. Over the years I realised what happened to me makes me strong not weak. For a long time I believed I'd never be good enough I felt like those men took a part of me. They didn't if anything they made me who I am because I refused to let that happen to me or anyone I care about again. My mother and I traveled to Westeros when I was 5. Indra was my mothers friend and we were playing by the sea shore and I injured myself. That's when Titus saw me and discovered I was in fact a Nightblood. He  convinced my mother to let him bring me well here. The only thing I have of my parents is. Is Sodom and Gomorrah the horses. Gustus was my fathers second. Indra was my mothers. I love my parents but I wish that they would have sent me away as an infant. The memories hurt so much more than not knowing them at all. (Lex... I never knew I'm so sorry for my harsh words. I know you only want what's best for her. She's my child Lexa I don't want to lose her again! If you and Roan believe this Cleo will take care of her I'll agree as much as I hate it. I'd rather her be alive and not with me then watching her die in front of me.) I will personally take her to Cleo to assure her safety. The Klironkru are a peaceful clan away from all of the war zones. I will allow you today but come morning she will be taken to Cleo. Costia begins to cry (Well I guess I should give her a name now shouldn't I Costia stares down at her daughter. I'll name you after my mother. My mothers full given name was Anastasia Magdalene. So I'll call you Madiana. My beautiful daughter I love you with all my heart I hope you are cared for.) Madiana is a beautiful name Costia. I promise you that she will be safe.