Before I was Heda

Anya

Anyas POV
Lexa won the Conclave. I never doubted her for a second. Luna fled she killed Silas then fled she is no longer my sister. I care for Silas and Luna but we were raised to believe love is Weakness just like all the other warriors. Silas and Luna were special they were twins both born with Night blood so my father and I always knew one or both would die it was inevitable. Seeing my younger brothers lifeless body was a shock only because it was Luna his twin who killed him then abandoned her conclave. I hope she survives out there alone but I pray I never see her again because her being alive threatens Lexa and I will protect my Heda's legacy Leksa Kom Trikru the 12th Commander of the 11 clans my second she will lead us well. Costia is good for Lexa she understands that her duties to her people are what's most important she gets that Lexa must always choose her head over her heart. I lead Lexa to the Sacred Temple where her Ascension will begin. She looks on edge not necessarily scared but guilt was apparent on her face. I stop Lexa from entering the room just as her hand reached for the handle I stopped her. She looked up at me with those green eyes. Lexa listen to me I see that your harbouring guilt from today but hear me now you did exactly what you have been trained for everything I have prepared you for. Now you are going to stand tall get rid of any feelings of guilt or sadness because you are Heda now Freya was a good Commander but you Leksa Kom Trikru are going to be the most powerful Commander our coalition has ever seen and no one can ever take that away from you. Not Nia, Not Luna, Not even Costia can take your title because you are Heda Commander of the 11 clans and maybe one day the Commander of the 12 clans be proud be strong and be smart I believe in you Heda. I bow before my Commander. ("Anya I don't want to disappoint you or Titus. What if the leaders of the clans won't follow me I'm just a kid I only know battle strategy I don't know how to run an entire coalition! What if I mess it up and then they kill me or worse I get everyone else killed".)
I will stand by your side Heda. I'll fight for you until my last breath. Now go it's time for you to ascend to Commander. Lexa takes one last look at me before pushing the doors open and
disappearing into the Sacred Temple that holds our people's history!
I wait outside of the temple so I can be the first to welcome Heda before she meets with the leaders to recite the lineage of the Commanders. Lexa will be a great leader but my concerns are with how much emotion she has she loves to much. Even after all she's been through she still cares and that's not something she can afford to show it will be her weakness. I remember being like her but that was so long ago. I still remember that day the day I changed. It was for the best a warrior can not afford to have a Weakness. My father taught me that. He was a brave strong warrior he was incredible the way he fought his attacks were perfection. I never knew my mother she was evidently to important to be known. I sometimes wonder about who she is or was but since father died I'll never know. Luna and Silas there mother died giving birth but she was a healer from DelfiKru. She was my fathers weakness and when she died a part of him died that day. When he discovered the twins were Nightbloods he was overjoyed. He believed that our family could have control of the clans. From that point on everything was about them. I still remember the day I met Indra and Lexa of course it was one of the best days of my life. I was already a pretty tough fighter but when Indra got here she had private lessons with Titus and she always invited me to join her training lessons I never would have made general at my age without her. I was her Second just as Lexa was mine. Indra wasn't the only one who changed me. A brown haired green eyed Natblida did the day I met Lexa I knew Luna and Silas would never be Commander the look of determination in her eyes at just 5 I knew my fathers dreams were crushed but I never faltered in what I believed more like who I believed in like I said I care for my siblings but I have no affection for them my father chose them not only over me but over Lexa. I know if he were still alive he would be my enemy. I'm grateful for his teachings but I'm also grateful he died a warriors death. In the war against Elisabeth to take back Edinburgh for Costia! I still remember the day he died it hurt but I knew it was for the best Yu Gonplei Ste Odon Father I closed his eyes. That day I was free of my weakness. A noise breaks me out of my thoughts. I look up to see Indra. Lexa's Ascension must almost be done. Indra and I don't speak we just stand watching the door waiting for Lexa waiting for Heda!