Chapter 14 - What now?

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I look over to my alarm who seems to be ringing none stop and I just can not be bothered to have to face school today, not after what happened yesterday. I take a deep breath and hear a knock at my door "Come on Rick" I say and he walks in with a plate of waffles "Why don't you stay at home? I can call the school and say you aren't okay?" Rick says and i shake my head

"I'm going to have to face this eventually, but the more i push it aside the harder its going to be" I say and he nods "When did you become so grown?" Rick asks and i chuckle ... After i eat i decide to just get ready to face this as if it does not affect me

(ignore the helmet and add a black cropped top) I grab my car keys and walk down the stairs "Are you sure you want to go today?" Rick asks and i nod "Yes i do, plus i need to cancel the whole talent show thing, it's in 2 days and i am not performi...

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(ignore the helmet and add a black cropped top) I grab my car keys and walk down the stairs "Are you sure you want to go today?" Rick asks and i nod "Yes i do, plus i need to cancel the whole talent show thing, it's in 2 days and i am not performing with Ryder" I say and Rick nods, i nod and walk away to my car

I get in and turn on the radio after i plug it into my phone just to hear 'take on the world' come on, i know sappy right?

Flashback

Me and Ryder are sitting with our feet in my pool and watching the stars"You know what would be great right now?" Ryder asks and i look at him confused, he gets up and grabs his phone "I know how much you like this one song from this one series, therefore" He says and puts on 'take on the world' from the last episode from the vampire diaries

"Ry?" I ask and he chuckles before putting a hand out "Come on Scar" He insists and i just chuckle before getting up, i grab his hand and he pulls me closer and starts slow dancing, guiding me since i am a horrible and stiff dancer "You are beautiful Scar"Ryder says and for some reason it makes my heart skip a beat

"How about" Ryder says before spinning me around just to pull me closer "We make this our song huh?" Ryder says and i smile "I would love that" I say the smile never leaving my face

End of flashback

I stare at my radio and i feel the tears falling which honestly made me so angry, i groan in frustration and throw a few punches at the wheel before taking a deep breath "This will not fuck you up Scarlet" I whisper to myself and start driving towards my school

after i park at my usual parking place and look at my rear mirror to check on my face, if you could tell that i was crying and luckily you can't. I get out my car and just walk inside, the students at this school opening up for me to walk by, and for once i wish i was one of those teens that did not have the whole school's attention

I reach my locker and i see the last person i want to see, Ryder "Scar" Ryder says, his voice raspy and cracking as he says my name as if he has been crying, i look up and fair enough his eyes were red "Ryder please don't" I whisper "I just need to explain" He says and i shake my head "No Ryder, there is nothing explain everything was fake okay? And now you don't have to fake to anybody else that you pretend to love me, now u can go back to Ellis that was the point of all of it wasn't it?" I whisper at him angrily before walking away, I get to my first class and take a deep breath

I sit at my usual seat at the back of the class and I see someone I do not want to see start walking towards me " hey" Jackson says and I look up at him with a slight bitchy look "not today Jackson" I say  " I heard you and Ryder broke up, I was just-" Jackson says but I cut him off by putting my hand up " I said not today Jackson, I don't care about what you heard or what you were doing now get the hell away from me" I say and Jackson shakes his head and reaches over to tuck a strand of hair behind my ear, I grab his hand and get up quickly before slightly twisting his hand before I hear him let out a painful grunt

"Jackson I said not now" I say "fine" he says and I let go off his hand before sitting back down, I get a few looks from the people that saw what just happened but I just choose to ignore everybody around me until I can get the hell out of this goddamn place

A few lessons later and I decide that I just need to get out of this place, I walk to the principals office and see him sitting down while using his computer, I knock and see him look up before walking in " sir I want to talk about the talent show, I'm going to drop out of it. I'm not sure if Ryder wants to continue or not that's his problem" I say and the principal looks concerned " do you want to have the rest of the day off?? You don't look so good" the principal asks and I nod "that would be great, I will be back in school tomorrow but today my mind has been a little messed. Kind of like when the accident happened" I say whispering the last sentence

" it's okay Scarlet, take your time okay just have Richard call us so we know you were okay" the principal says and I nod, I get up and walk out the office, I make my way to my car and I see Ryder sitting there "what do you want Jones" I ask not even bothered " let me explain to you Scar" Ryder says and I shake my head "it's Scarlet or Parker" I say, nobody has called me Parker since before my parents died but that could stick back on instead of the old "Scar" that everyone is so scared off.

"Please" he insists and I just shake my head " I can't Ryder" I say and get into my car, I quickly drive away trying to hold back my tears, I drive straight home and see Ricks car, I run inside and see Rick standing in the kitchen "Ricky" I say my voice cracking, Rick runs to me and hugs me tight letting me cry into his chest "it's okay jellybean let it out" Rick says and I do, I start sobbing until I feel like I can't breath "i love him Rick" I whisper my voice cracking, I can't deny what I feel for him anymore "i don't want to face school" I say and Rick nods "it's okay jellybean you don't have to" Rick says and I nod

I sit on the couch with Rick with my head on his lap "after all these months, I couldn't help but love him Rick" I say "and that is completely normal jellybean, falling in love is part of being a teenager" Rick says and I just stay silent letting my tears fall into his lap until sleep completely takes over my mind

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