secret lovesong

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Rye

I deeply inhaled Andy's scent and pulled him closer to my chest. He leaned against me and I placed my cheek onto his fluffy hair. I liked the way he was wearing his hair recently. I held him close, glad that he didn't push me back and I felt myself calming down, my anger slowly disappearing.

After all this time was Andy still the only person, who managed to comfort me. I was happy, that Andy and I had become closer again.

//

During the past few months I'd gotten the feeling, that we somehow had grown apart from each other. I'd never stopped believing, that Andy would be there for me if I would ever need his help, although we'd nearly stopped speaking. I clearly felt, that something was wrong with our friendship.

At first I'd thought he just wanted to be nice and give me and my girl some time together, but as the weeks went by I'd started to realize that Andy had tried to avoid me. There had been multiple times where I'd been standing in front of his room, thinking about knocking on the door and asking him about his problem, but everytime I'd heard him working on our new songs and I'd decided against it.

At some point I'd started to tell myself that I hadn't been the reason for Andys mood. I'd begun to blame all the stressful things he had to deal with. Things like touring Mexico with Harvey and working on the new EP. I'd just shrugged it of and continued with my life.

And when the time had come in which I needed him the most, Andy had proved that I'd been right. A month ago my relationship had started to get complicated. During that time Andy had shown up more often at my room door and had started to hang out with me again. He'd started to teach me how to play the guitar and after my relationship had come to an end, we'd started to spend our evenings together like we once had used to.

I'd realized pretty soon how much I had missed the conversations with him and that I'd missed being around him. I'd started to hate myself for letting down my friend just because of a girl although I'd promised myself to never ever let any friendship suffer under my relationships.

//

I felt Andy's heart beating on my skin and a warm feeling spread through my veins. Before I had the chance to analyse this feeling, Andy pulled away from me.

"Do you want to talk about it?", he asked, observing my face. The anger and disappointment started to heat up in my body again. Fastly I denied.

"No , I think I just need something to distract me. I'm gonna have to talk about it with Blair anyway and for today I just want to forget all this.". Andy frowned a little, but nodded without replying anything. That was one of the reasons why I was so glad to have him as my best friend. He was so sensible and somehow he always knew when it was time to remain silent.

"Do you want to watch a documentary with me?", I continued our conversation. I didn't want to be alone tonight. Andy face lit up and he smiled at me. He looked so happy and adorable.

Adorable? Really Rye?

"Of course, just let me hop under the shower real quick and get myself ready for bed.", he answered, cheeks slightly blushed and a wide grin over his face. He nearly sprinted outside my room, but suddenly stopped.

"And dress yourself!", he said, looking at me over his shoulder. I started laughing. "Oh come on, Andy. I know you like it.", I smirked. I'd just said it to tease him a little bit, but I saw Andy blushing. "You wish!", he responded, trying to sound cheeky, but I heard the shaking in his voice and saw the red on his cheeks.

What was going on here?

Andy turned around, walked out of my room and I was left alone. After I'd put on some Adidas pants and a t-shirt my eyes fell on my phone, which was still laying on the ground. The display had been shattered, but it was somehow still working. I had a few missing calls from my ex and some of my friends. I decided to leave it at this point for today, because I was too annoyed to think straight. So I put my phone on the side of my bed.