Daylight (a.i)

Five

Ashton's POV

"You got raped?" I said after her silence.

Shit

Fucking shit. I really learn to keep my mouth shut sometimes.

"Jo i'm sorry i didn't know. You should have said something i swear i didnt mean it."

What was i suppose to say Ashton? 'Hello i'm Jo. I like bands, pizza and oh yeah i got raped'? Its not something i just tell people"

"im so sorry honestly"

Considering she already hates me. A LOT. It's gonna take a lot for her to forgive me.

"Ashton. It's fine i gues. It's not like you knew is it? And i can't blame you for it"

Well that was easier than i thought.

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

"Not really. It's a touchy subject you know?"

And i did know. But not in that way.

"I know what it's like to be feeling that way"

"What?" she asked and i sat down next to her once again and took off the bracelets i was wearing, showing her my arms. And cuts. And scars.

"I started when i was a teenager. I was always bullied in school, made fun of and then my dad left my family and i was the father figure to my little sister and baby brother. And i just couldn't do it anymore. If my band memebers hadn't let me into the band, chances are, i wouldn't be around anymore. I...i stopped once i got into the band and everything started to look up for me. I was actually happy and had a life. But after our debut single came out, i recieved a lot of hate. More than everyone else. They trended the worst thing i could've imagine and i couldn't take it anymore. I've been cutting again since. And now i guess you're the only one who knows"

"Ashton...." Jo traced my scars and cuts which made me wince in slight pain.

"Don't hurt yourself. You're better than them. You know you are. Whoever hates on you deserves to be hit with a chair in the balls"

I looked up at her and smiled

She smiled back and for once everything was ok.

She spoke after a long while

"You know what I don't get - why are people so set on bringing others down; once your down its so hard to get back up. It's like they burry you alive, each word is another pile of dirt being thrown on your body. The worst part is I don't even want to dig myself out."

Silent tears slipped down Jo's face. I reached over and dried them. "Sometimes people feel the need to bring others down because it brings them up. I'm not saying it's fair but nothing really is, we're all just fighting for peace. Ironic isn't it."

"Very" she whispered.

"Ashton I don't want you to hurt yourself anymore, nothing good comes from it, your far to amazing to tarnish."

I don't reply

I don't want to make a promise I couldn't keep.

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Hey guys sorry that chapter was super short and not all that great

We promise the next chapter will be longer. Maybe we can even update early????????????

Ok and question: what do you think is going on between ash and jo ? Could you see them as a couple?

Ily guys

See you soon

- taylor Xoxo