Love Will Remember {Sequel to ATB}

Chapter 7

Peter is handing me water, and I push it away. I get up and run to the bathroom. I need to get out of here. All my past in one damn place. What did I do to see them all again? How is he even here? How does he know these people?

My head is spinning, and all I want to do is die. I can’t deal with this. I might have been able to deal with Nathan, but not Zayn. Seeing him is way too painful. It’s like the scar of the wounds I have was just ripped off, and they’re pouring lemon juice on them. The way he was smiling brings back so many memories that I’ve tried so much to forget.

“Gwen open up.” I hear Nathan say. I shake my head as if he can see me. I’m not going to open this door until he’s gone. “Please love open up.” He says again.

“Get him out of here.” I grit and pummel the door.

“Get who? Gwen open the door.” I open the door and hug him. I cry onto his chest. This can’t be happening. Not today. Not ever. I must be having a nightmare. I pinch my arm, and nothing I don’t wake up. I pinch harder and still nothing. “Stop you’re going to hurt yourself.” Nathan holds me by my wrist. I try to get out of his hold, but see him walk in. I hide behind Nathan. He looks at me and smiles. I hold Nathan tighter, and he turns to see me.”Are you ok?” I shake my head frantically. It’s getting harder for me to breath, I’m starting to shake, and I feel the room spin. Zayn gets closer, and jerk out of Nathan’s grip and run. I run, I run not knowing where I’m going. I just need to get away from them.

Peter! I need Peter. Where the hell is he? I run to the back yard, and he’s not in his seat. My heart is pounding so hard, it feels likes it’s about to pop out of my chest. I feel like I'm running in circles. I can’t find him, and if I don’t I know will end up having a damn heart attack.

I find myself in a room, it blue. I’m guessing it belongs to a boy. I walk over and sit down on the bed. I try to control my breathing, but with everything going around me it’s hard to catch my breath. First Nathan, he’s acting like nothing happened. Then Zayn, I don’t even think he remembers me.

The door opens, and Nathan walks in. I look at him, he smiles and closes the door. Oh no, I can’t be in same room with. Especially if we’re alone. He walks over to me, and kneels in front of me.

“Are you calm now?” I nod. “This was my childhood room.” he smiles and looks around the room before his eyes make it back to me. “What made you get like that?” I shrug. “Gwen talk to me.” He gently says as he tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear.

“How do you know him?” is all I manage to say, well ask.

He furrows his brows “Who?”

“Zayn” I whisper and look away from him. Nathan cups my face, and looks me right in the eye. I can see him look down at my lips. I find myself doing the same thing to him. He shrugs.

“I think my mom and Jess knew him. Why?”

“He’s the one.” is all I can say before I start to sob. I nuzzle my head in the crook of his neck. His puts his arms around me and holds me tight.

“He’s the bastard.” he grits through his teeth. I nod and hug him tighter. “Wait here.” he tries to get up, but I stop him. I don’t him to start any trouble. Not today at least. It’s his sisters day, and I don’t want it to be ruined.   

I pull him back, and we fall back on his bed. He’s on top of me. I caress his cheek, he leans into my hand and closes his eyes. My dress hitches up, and he’s now in between my legs. His elbows are on either side of my head. I run my hands up and down his sides. He looks down at me, and I feel like I’m transported back to our spring break in Malibu.

No, this isn’t right. I’m with Peter. I can’t do this. I will never do anything to hurt him. I know what it feels to be hurt, and I won’t put him through it.

“Nathan please get off.” I look away from him.

“You really do like him don’t you?” he whispers as he nuzzles his face in my neck. I sigh, if he only knew I like him almost as much as I like Peter. All the feelings I thought I had gotten rid of are coming back. They are coming back, and they are coming back hard.

How am I supposed to hide all this away from Peter? He will find out one way or another. All I need to do is keep my distance from Nathan. Yeah I can do that. Wait no, I can’t he lives right in front of me. And having him this close to me, isn’t really helping.

“Can I kiss you?” he pulls away just enough for his nose to brush against mine. Oh fuck it I need this.. I press his lips to mine, and get lost in the kiss. It’s raw and full of emotion. I missed his lips. A tear rolls down the side of my face. It hurts more to know that I can’t kiss him anymore. I can’t be near him. His tongue shows dominance from the minute I allow it in. Kiss goes from sweet and gentle to hungry and rough. I tangle my fingers in his hair and tug at it. Nathan groans, and that’s a sign for me to stop. I can’t seem to stop, I can feel the need in the kiss. The need for one another. Even if he did hurt me, I can’t lie, I’m missed him. I tried to be tough and say I didn’t, but I did.

He starts to run his hands up my dress and that’s where I pull away. He looks at me and furrows his brow. We’re are both panting, we may have kissed before, but nothing compared to this. This was more carnal.

“Nathan, I, I can’t I’m with Peter and I don’t want to hurt him. I know how it feels, and I don’t want him to go through all the pain I did.” He nods, and rolls off of me. “Tell me what you’re going to tell Thursday now, because usually me and Peter go out at night.” I turn to face him.

“So you’re serious about Peter?” I nod.

“I didn’t know you guys are cousins.” I frown. “I’m going to hell for this.” I slightly smile at him. He caresses my cheek with the back of his hand.

“No you’re not. You had no idea we were cousins.” He closes his eyes. “When you said that you love him, did you meant it? Do you love him as much as me?” he opens his eyes, and I can see sadness. I just want to hold him tight and never let him go. But I can’t.

“I’m still trying to figure that out.” I lean closer to him. The love I feel for Peter is different from the one I have for Nathan.

“You still love me don’t you?” he smirks. I playfully smack his arm. I shake my head, but deep down I know I’ll always love him.

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