During the lunch break, sitting with your friends, their faces lighting up with beguiling smiles
As they crack jokes, you laugh and laugh
You realize how lucky you are to have this moment but slowly something feels weird as if the puzzle isn't complete, the pieces not fit perfectly
As your mind dwells upon it, something inside you tells you that it's just an illusion, a moment, a fragment of life created.
You start noticing small details that you never noticed before
Your laugh slowly dies down and you notice things that make your heart heavy,
As if a stone is being placed on it, like a responsibility
That is the time when you question yourself, am I happy?
Am I really happy from the bottom of my heart?
Or was it just an illusion created from my mind
Maybe because I was trying to find the happiness in every joke in every moment, with anyone around me
Am I really happy?
Do I find happiness when I am with my loved ones, with friends, maybe even alone?
Wondering about it for so long, getting drenched in your own emotions,
You find peace, you find solace in doing so,
Emotions so vast, so beautiful yet so destructive,
Just like a heavy storm
So deceiving yet so truthful
The inability to laugh anymore and to find happiness anymore drives your insane
You feel so lost, lost within yourself
As if you are lost in a black hole
If you aren't able to escape it as you get sucked inside
Deeper and deeper
You are confused with what you feel
That's when you ask yourself " am I really happy?"
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The Unruly Mind
Non-FictionThis is where unruly thoughts filled with curiosity are spilled out, where my untamed thoughts are put in one place, where stains and pieces of the mind and heart are told. I hope you will be able to relate to and feel what I write. #195 in the Pers...
