Twist of fate

The heart wants what it wants

I wake up hours later to find a pair of eyes looking down at me. I blush and pull my blankets over my eyes. I suddenly feel exposed. Vulnerable. I'm aware of my position in here. And I think WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!?! I don't say a word. I can't say anything but hey.

I feel a hand pull me around to face his eyes. I adjust my vision and look and see Ashley. I cannot fall for him. I'm not here to fall for a band that I'm hired to take care of. And get shit done. I am not sure what to feel now?

But I am. I'm slowly falling for this guy. I feel his hand pull me closer. And I am overcome with emotion and he pulls me up onto him and I lean down and my mouth meets his. And my mind screams NO! STOP! This is not right. But I do not listen to my mind. I listen to my heart and I kiss him back. His mouth moves in motion with mine. He flips me over and hes on top of me. I pull him close and I kiss him. We do not move any further then kissing. I release and he looks down at me. His bangs are in his face.  I pull them over and he smiles. He gets up and I get up. WHAT DID I JUST DO????

****OUR BUS COMES TO A STOP******

He smiles and gets up and walks out of the bus. I grab my blanket and race out of the bunk area and back up towards the front. We have just stopped to get some gas.

I flop down next to Ashley and lay down on my back. I lay on her lap and she smiles. She puts her phone down and starts playing with my now faded blond and black hair. I did not even say a word. "I know honey. I know. Ashley likes you babe. He was worried sick about you during your anxiety attack. You had a horrible one to boot." " I cannot figure out what I need to do? I like him. I have liked him since I laid eyes on him two years ago. Even though he broke my heart badly, I cannot help but fall for him. How?"

Ashley smiled as she braided my hair. " Its called human nature. You cannot control what happens with love baby. You know as well as I do that love is complex. I dated Chris Motionless for a while and we were so good together. Problem was is that we were so busy. And I broke it off with him. Ashley has a reputation sweetie. You know that too well. He will have one night stands and break their hearts. HOWEVER! He has not had them ever since he reunited with you." She says as we take back off again. She starts French braiding my hair and pulls it out.

"Come here! I want to put your hair into braids. She pulls me back to her area and sits me down. I yawn big. I am still groggy from the anxiety pill. Nikki is in his bunk reading a book. The rest are asleep.

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Ashley puts my hair into two French braids and I hug her and go get changed into my hello kitty pajamas and I put my clothes into my Koi Laundry bag.

I lay down and cover up with my blanket and I close my curtain. It is 9:00 P.M. and I am ready to unwind.

I decide to check my social media pages. I log into Facebook first and check out people's posts. I see that a girl named Britney has posted a comment that made my teeth grind. I had posted a selfie here a while back. Hanging out in the backyard of my parents house in a hammock. Saying that I was pumped to get going on my newest tour with BVB and NYD.

Britney is a girl that I used to be friends with. Until she had the nerve to get jealous. I have since then posted pictures of Ashley and the band. Saying that this job fucking rocks. And that I would not have it any other way.

Mad Hatter Maddie posted a picture at 8:45 P.M. from Black Veil Bride's tourbus:

Took this stunning picture of the one and only Ashley Purdy kicking ass at our concert last night. Super pumped to be doing another night with these amazing fans. We love these crowds. Next stop? Arizona!

Love my boys so much! :-)

I posted it and in less then a minute 1,200 people liked the picture. I unfriended a bunch of people including Britney and her family. Ashley posted a comment immediately.

AshleyPurdyInc:

WOW! NICE JOB MADISON! GOES TO SHOW YOU THAT THIS GIRL IS MULTI-TALENTED! MUCH LOVE GOES OUT TO THIS AMAZING HUMAN! @MADHATTERMADDIE .

I logged off and sent him a text message.

Maddie Tyler: You are too kind! Thank you for commenting on the post. Less then a minute after I posted it, 1,200 people liked it. I will send it directly to you. I had to though. You looked right at me and I just happened to capture the shot. Here you go!

I hit send and I saw him look at it and started replying.

Ash: THANK YOU DOLL! OF COURSE I COMMENTED ON IT. YOU DESERVE THE CREDIT. YOUR STUNNING AND TALENTED BEYOND WORDS. NOW! PLEASE GET SOME SLEEP TYLER. YOU NEED YOUR BEAUTY REST!

I smiled and left it at that.

I logged onto Instagram and there were 25,000 comments on my last picture of me and the band. I started reading them and liking them. I replied to a few and smiled at a bunch.

I logged out and checked Twitter. I scrolled through the tweets and liked a few. And logged out.

I took my medicine and vitamins and shut my eyes.

These boys were gonna kill me before this tour was through. I just did not know it at the time.