Arrangement Of Love

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Later that night, we are home and putting the kids to bed. Laying in bed with Juan, he is snoring softly beside me and I can't sleep. I slowly slip out of bed and make my way to the nursery. Standing there, looking at my babies, I feel a tear fall down my cheek. My mind won't shut off. I pull the rocking chair over between the cribs and sit down, just watching them sleep. After a while, I look up and Juan is standing in the doorway to the nursery, just looking at me. Walking over, he kneels down in front of me. "Talk to me babe." I look back at the twins and say "I look at these two and I love them so much. It makes me wonder what was so horrible about me to make them hate me so much." I say. "Baby, that was on them. Not you. Some people are just not meant to be parents." he tells me. I look at him, "I'm so scared that I will turn out like them. I love my babies, Juan but I'm scared I won't be a good mom." I tell him as the tears start flowing. He pulls me up and sits in the rocker and pulls me into his lap. "Babe, you are already ten times the parent they were." he tells me. I just lay my head on his shoulder and cry.

I must have dozed off because the next thing I knew, I was waking up in bed, and could hear Juan in the nursery talking to the twins. "Mommy and Daddy love you both so much. But let me tell you something about your Mommy. She's worried she won't be a good mom but you both are healthy and happy babies and I am happy. That's because of your Mommy. She's amazing. She didn't have people to love her like you two do so we have to love her more for that but I don't think that will be a problem. I love you two and your mommy more than anything in this world. But I'm going to tell you something but you have to keep it a secret from Mommy. She saved me. Daddy was in a bad place and she brought me out of that. She thinks that I saved her but really, she saved me." he tells our babies. I wipe the tears from my cheeks and get out of bed. Walking into the kitchen to start breakfast.

Once breakfast is done, Juan and I are sitting at the table while the babies are in their bouncers and I tell him, "I heard what you said to the twins." He smiles and says "I meant it. You saved me baby." I get up from my seat and walk over to sit in his lap. "We saved each other Juan." I tell him and he kisses me softly. I hear him groan as we deepen the kiss. He pulls away and says "Two more weeks. Just two more weeks." I laugh a little and say "Maybe I can help a little." I get down on my knees in front of him and pull out his hard member before sliding my lips over the head and taking him entirely in my mouth. I slide my mouth up and down his member before he starts to softly thrust. After a few minutes, he releases his load in my mouth and I swallow each drop. Getting up, he pulls me up and pulls me to him. Holding me he says "I fucking love you." I laugh a little and say "Love you too."

After the kitchen is cleaned, I sit in the living room with Juan and the babies when there's a knock on the door. Juan gets up to answer and sees that it's Jax. Letting him in, he walks over to me and hugs me. "Sis, I just wanted to check in and see how you're holding up." he asked. "I'm okay. Jax, they gave birth to me but they weren't my parents. Gemma and Tig are my parents. They did nothing but beat me and treat me like I wasn't worth the air I breathe. Them being gone, I get to raise my kids and not have to look over my shoulder all the time, wondering when they will come back. They were going to take my kids but got me instead. Jax, they were going to rent me. All I ever was to them was a way to make money and a punching bag. Plus, Juice and I talked last night and I am feeling a lot better about everything." I tell him. Smiling, he looks at me and pulls me into a hug. "Call me if you need anything sis. Love you." he says. "Love you too brother." I say.