Arrangement Of Love

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

It's been a couple of months since I started my blog and me, Juan and the twins seem to have gotten into our own little routine. After breakfast, I am cleaning up the kitchen. Juan comes up behind me and says "I have the day off. What do you want to do today?" he asked. "Maybe we can take the kids out for the day. I know they are still too little but maybe we could go to the aquarium or something?" I asked. "That sounds like a great idea babe." he says, kissing my neck. "You keep that up and we won't make it out of the house." I say. "That sounds like a good idea too." he says. I just shake my head. "You know as soon as the doctor gave me the all clear, you would think you were trying to knock me up again." I say laughing. "And if I were?" he asked, almost seriously. "Juan?" I asked. "I'm not trying to knock you up but if it were to happen, I would love him or her just the same as the twins. But, no, babe, I'm not trying to knock you up but I have missed making love to my wife." he tells me. "You just miss the shower sex." I say laughing. "That too." he says laughing with me.

I finish cleaning up the kitchen and we get the kids ready and ourselves ready to walk out the door. Pulling up to the aquarium, we have the babies strapped to our chests and head in to see the exhibits. We spend the next couple of hours walking through and seeing everything while the babies were sleeping but it was us spending time as a family. Family. I have a real family. After the aquarium, we head to get something to eat. Sitting at the diner, eating with one hand and feeding the babies with our other, we talk about everything and nothing all at the same time.

Once we make it home, we unload the babies, the diaper bag and the stuffed animals that Juan insisted on buying the babies. We order pizza and bathe and put the babies down while we wait for the food. Sitting down, Juan turns the tv on and I pick up my laptop. "You gonna post about today?" he asked. "I thought I would if that's okay?" I asked. "That's fine baby. You know most of the guys have me read them your blog posts? They really like what you have to say." he tells me. "Really?" I asked. "Yeah. Babe, you are really good at it." he says and I can't help but smile. I start typing my blog post.

Well, today was a day of all days. My husband and I decided to take our three month old twins to the aquarium today. I know, they were really too little to enjoy it and they slept through the entire thing but my husband and I had some quality time as a family. It was amazing. You know, I had never been to anything like that. I never had a family day and it's an amazing feeling to be able to make these kind of memories with my own family. It gives me hope that I won't completely screw up my kids the way my family screwed me up. But that's the thing. My husband and my kids make me feel like I am not totally screwed up. They make me feel like I'm doing something right. And I hope that if I can do one thing by having this blog, I hope that I can help at least one mother not feel so alone.

Juan looks over my shoulder as I am writing and when I am done he says "That's amazing babe." I lean into him and say "I love you Juan. You don't know how much I love you and our kids." he kisses me softly. "Post it so we can head to bed." he tells me. I publish the blog post and close the laptop and head to bed with my husband.