Through The Mind, story of the Spider's Beloved Butterfly (ChrolloXReader)

Beyond the Wall

It's been a few weeks now and you were impressed with the progress of the trio. While you waited for them and in between your secret updates to Killua, you were either training with Illumi or teacher Zeno but mainly Illumi. You could always use a refresher and you enjoyed the time together with him. Since you left he would always pop up every so often, but never stayed longer than a day or two. Today Illumi had a mission though and so you were training with teacher Zeno.

"I see you have more characters in here than the last time." Zeno points out as you both enter Mirror World. He convinced you to go through some of your locked memories in order to strengthen your mental stability, nothing more than level three or a possible four though.

"Yeah, I have added six original characters, thirty four storybook character, and have four more possibles since you came here two years ago." You reply as you both make your way to the wall. The closer you got to the large overbearing structure, the darker the sky grew. It seemed as if the darkness that began covering the sky more and more was coming from behind it's firmly shut gate doors. The doors themselves were alive with ominous beings moving around. Some were demonic and looked as if they were trying to move through the doors into the world of color behind you. If you looked closer, you would notice that most were holding weapons and were constantly pushing back the demonic looking beings. They were the main defensive line for all of the horrendous memories you keep locked away. On the other side of this massive wall were your demons, each one representing a horrific trauma or thing you have forced yourself to suppress deep inside your mind.

Just a little ways in front of the ominous gate doors and overbearing wall were pillars, they were widely spread and continued to line just in front of the wall. On top of each one was an equally horrify gargoyle. Your last line of defense against the memories inside. The firmly shut gate doors will sometimes be forced open a crack and the demons inside will try to escape, the gargoyles throw them back over the wall. Even when you do something like this and crack it open intentionally, the gargoyles make sure only the ones you desire can come out.

"Impressive, you found so many that meet your picky requirements in such a short time. I imagine that the three you are helping come here are some of them?" Zeno doesn't flinch in the slightest as the two gargoyles fly off from their perch and inspect the man. They also make sure no unwanted guests get to close to the dangerous structure, resident or guest of the Mirror World. After they deem him approved, they move to the gate doors, preparing to open them slightly and grab the desired memories.

"They are, but I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm helping them per say. It's more like I'm making sure they get a far shot and that no one is going to try and kill my new characters." Zeno nods in understanding, both of you going silent as the doors creak open and two demons fly threw the small crack. One was a sour looking yellow with a single horn protruding on its forehead. It's wings were cropped as if they were a birds and the owner didn't want it flying away. One of the gargoyles grabs it quickly and stares at it intensely. You were more worried about the other though. This one was a pitch dark red, so dark it might as well have been black. It had no horns and you could only see the color of it's skin by its exposed skin from it's feet and hands. The rest of it was covered in a dirty fading brown cloak. You couldn't see past the suffocating black shadow to the things face, but you did see two glowing yellow orbs. Starring dangerously at you with a smile of razor sharp teeth that somehow seemed to glow despite the white being covered in blood. The other gargoyle immediately restrains it and lets out a fearful roar. Three other nearby gargoyles spring into action and help to restrain the single demonic creature.

You couldn't help but feel intense fear course through your body as it fought to go to you. Your breathing gets shallow and you break out into a cold sweat. Zeno immediately comes to the conclusion as to what the demon was and steps in front of you as the gargoyles fly over the wall and throw the thing back to the other side of the wall. While this was happening the gargoyle who was holding the yellow demon turned the demon into the memory it was born from. 

"That was it wasn't it?" Zeno asks without turning away from where the demon was last seen.

"Yes," You whisper out. "That was it." Zeno grumbles before turning to the memory that was pulled out.

"I never went easy on you before and I won't start now, I want you to do this one. However taking into account that it is so close to the gate right now we will only do this one for today." You steady your breathing and walk up to the memory.

"I wouldn't want you to go easy on me even if you asked." With that you move to see the memory. It was of the first time you were beaten by the slave traders that took you from your home. A level three memory. The beating no longer made you fearful, but the trauma and fear would be relived. Your first taste of such a torturous thing would of course be suppressed, even if you were used to such things now. Your brother always protected you in Meteor City so you had never really been beaten so badly before. 

Zeno moves a little close to observe while you stretch your hand to touch the memory panel. Suddenly the surrounding area turns into the cell at the bottom of the boat you had ingrained in your mind and you watch as a younger you abused. Your emotions begin to run high and your blood lust overflows at the men.