last of his kind [yoonseok] {diary au}

chapter 1

    hoseok returned home from a long day of practicing his dance skills. he was excited to show yoongi what kind of stuff they were doing at the studio. yoongi was the only reason why he continued to dance so hard even when his muscles were so sore. he liked how yoongi would praise him, which made all the exhaustion worth it.

he opened the door and called out in an excited voice. "yoongi! i have a new dance to show you today! aren't you excited?" when yoongi didn't respond, hoseok locked the door behind him and went further into the house.

he noticed how the bathroom door was wide open and the lights were still on. he looked inside to see a seemingly unconcious yoongi. after inspecting further, he noticed that there were sleeping pills scattered all over the floor. panicking, he called 911 while attempting to wake up yoongi.

the paramedics came, but they confirmed that yoongi was already dead before hoseok even got home. that day, hoseok cried in his room all night. as a way to cope with yoongi's death, he opened up a journal and started writing. it was supposed to be a journal about work, but now it was going to be used as a way to get over yoongi. writing in journals reminded him about how yoongi and hoseok would have to write secret letters to each other during the early stages of them dating.

dear yoongi, my everything,

i want to hate you so much for killing yourself. i really do, but i can't seem to do it. even though you killed yourself and didn't tell me any of your problems, i still love you. i feel so lost now that you're gone. what am i supposed to do now? do i just move on as if nothing happened between us? i feel unmotivated to do anything now that you're gone. you should've told me you had depression. if you did, we could've gotten through it together. instead, you decided to end it on your own by killing yourself. i really can't understand you, yoongi. even if you aren't suffering anymore, you've now passed your suffering onto me. even so, i hope you have a good time in the afterlife. you deserve it for staying so strong. i wish you luck, yoongi. i'll love you for the rest of my life.
                                                                      jung hoseok.