My Brother's Andy Biersack?

Chapter 10

The next morning I lay in bed, not wanting to get up. Because getting up would mean dealing with Craig and I really couldn’t handle that. But when 2:30 rolled around I got up, took a shower, and got changed. I went downstairs and grabbed my keys off the counter, which now had the key to ETF’s house on it. I was fixing to leave when I heard Robert call out to me.

“Where are you going?”

“I’m meeting Ronnie at the park,” I paused, “I have to talk to him; sort things out.”

“Okay. Call if you need a ride home.”

“Thanks Robert.” I smiled.

He smiled back and I left. I walked down the street towards the park thinking of all the things Ronnie would say to me when I told him about what happened with Craig. He would most likely call me a slut and a whore but I already knew that.

I imagined exactly how the scene would unfold: I would get there early and when Ronnie showed up he would kiss me. I would push him away to see a confused look on his face. I would sit him down then I would tell him that I cheated. I’d see the shocked look on his face and look down at my feet to avoid seeing the hate in his face when I told him it was with the exact same person he had told me to stay away from. He would get up and yell at me. All the while I would be sitting there staring at my feet waiting for all this to be over. He would yell some more before storming off and leaving me. I might cry but most likely not because I had begun to realize that I didn’t love Ronnie. I only liked him. Also I had already cried enough for the next ten years of my life in the past two days.

Didn’t mean I wouldn’t still feel the heartbreak.

When I got to the park I noticed Ronnie was already there. I walked up to him expecting him to kiss me, but instead he just gave me a peck on the lips.

“What’s up babe?” he smiled a goofy smile at me.

“Ronnie, I need to tell you something. Something you will most likely hate me for. And I really don’t want to tell you, but I know I have to because it wouldn’t be fair to either of us if I kept this a secret.”

“Olivia, what’s wrong? You’re scaring me.” Ronnie took hold of my shoulders and looked at me with concerned eyes.

“Ronnie,” I paused, “I…I cheated on you.”

His grip on my shoulders tightened and his voice got cold, “Who was it?”

“Ronnie-“

“Who was it, Olivia?”

“Craig.” I said softly.

He wrenched his hands away from my shoulders and turned his back to me. I took a step towards him and put a hand on his shoulder but he shook me off.

“Don’t touch me.”

“Ronnie, I’m sorry.”

“You’re sorry!? You cheated on me with the one person I asked you to stay away from! And you’re sorry?!”

“Yell at me all you want. I deserve it. Scream at me and yell hateful things. I deserve all of it and more.”

“I can’t believe you! Craig was the one person I wanted you to keep your distance from and that’s who you cheated with!”

“Ronnie what I did was stupid and I deserve everything you’re about to say to me. So go ahead. Say it. Tell me exactly what you think of me because I’m not worthy of being with you anymore.”

“You know what? I might just believe that. You’re nothing but a whore; a slut.” His words were dripping with venom. And all I could do was stand there and stare at him. Each word cut into me like a razor sharp blade dipped in poison. But I took it because I knew the words were true. I had cheated on him; I was a slut and a worthless piece of shit.