I can tell he hasn't been out side in forever, his freckles are barely there. Yet they're still holding on, just like us, fighting for their own existence, fighting to be alive, to be different...
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"Felix is everything okay? You look a bit stressed."
"Yeah, I'm just... worried about the others."
He states blankly and begins to pick up his pace.
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I've always thought that life was like a book, you control what your character says and does, even thinks. The only difference is you can't control the other characters, you can't tell what they're thinking. I know the others aren't the only thing that's bothering him. It may be best to just let it go, let him tell me when he's ready. My heart aches seeing him like this, he looks so stressed, tired and he appears to have lost a good bit of weight. There's no telling when the last time he ate was.
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"Felix? You look like you're starving! How about before we just disappear we get some of that great cafeteria food, aye?"
I shoot him a side glare mixed with a wink.
"One last scandal huh? You've changed my little goody two shoes."
He looks over to me embarrassed at what he just said but still wearing that perfect smile.
"How many shoes am I supposed to have? These don't even fit! They're like 30x way too big!"
When I was in the water I wasn't wearing any shoes so I had to steal some out of the supply closet. Turns out they don't carry my size.
"They don't fit? That explains why you're walking so slow. Come on."
He walks in front of me bending down and patting his back, signaling me to get on. Like always I obey.
"Why did you show up after all that time? I barely even recognized you."
I feel weirdly comfortable, my arms thrown over his shoulders, playing with the collar of his shirt, my head on his. I feel safe for the first time in a while.
"Like I said I was planning on escaping, I wanted to get to see you again before I said goodbye. Don't get me wrong I wasn't just going to leave you, I was going to come back after I knew the city was safe. If I would have known me talking to you would've messed up everything... I wouldn't change a thing. You know why?"
There's this huge idiotic smile played across his lips. It doesn't stay long.
"No, tell me! Please!"
I can't help but laugh. It feels so good to know he's okay. To know that everyone is okay.
"...Because if I didn't I wouldn't have been here to help you, you wouldn't be on my back right now. I would've hated myself if I found out anything happened to you and I wasn't here to help you. It would've ruined me."
I can practically see the pain he's feeling. I feel it, he's always been one to wear his heart on his sleeves.
"Felix... I'm so, so glad you came back. All this time I was busy being so worried about finding Minho and Jeongin that I passed right by you! For that I feel like a total asshole. I'm sorry. I should've know it was you."
I tighten my grip on his chest. My stomach has been going absolutely insane this whole time.
"Y/N, don't beat yourself up for it. You where just focused on the problem at hand. I'm not upset, I'm not mad. I'm happy to see you found friends. I'm glad you made good friends, I'm sure they miss you very much. I know they do. Anyone who meets you misses you."
Ahhh, there's that smile! I tease him only in my head.
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We're almost to the cafeteria, Felix lets me off his back. I'm the shorter one so I volunteer to get the food. I sneak past staff into the kitchen. I take a look around making sure it's empty. I walk over to grab some pudding and sandwiches for the others. I feel a arm tightly around my neck. I know it's not Felix, I need to tell him to get the hell out of here.
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"Felix! Run, now!!"
That's all I have time to say before his grip tightens around my neck. I can tell he's trying to get me to pass out or choke. This doesn't end well.
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All I hear is a loud grunt from outside the kitchen, the familiar blackness is back. I'm sinking back into my own mind deeper and deeper, until I'm out...
A/N- I'm so sorry!! This took me way to long to write. I've been quite busy with school so bare with me I'll try to update soon! Anyway I hope you enjoyed as always!
~yutouchingmysausage 🌵🌵
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FanficY/N's mom put her into the District when she was only 3 weeks old, being raised by Rachel til she was three. It starts out all nice with food on your tray and a soft bed, it surly doesn't stay that way. She was quick to make friends, til they weren'...
