Sinking Deep

Protect

       He keeps a strong hold on my left arm to make sure I'm okay at all times. I always thought I was the one protecting him but turns out it was exactly the opposite.

      All this time trying to protect everyone else I was just trying to save myself from more heartbreak. They where the ones who where taking care of me, saving me. All in all it's human for everyone to want to think they won. I tried to save Felix but he still got hurt, I tried to make Minho stay but he still left. One thing I've learned is that you can't live your whole life trying to control others, because it's pointless. I thought Felix was heartless for leaving me. I thought he was so selfish and mean, wasn't I the one who was? He left to save me, to protect me. All I did was get mad at him, at Minho, at Jeongin for leaving me. I should've thought that maybe they where probably protecting me by not telling where they where going.
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      "Y/N? You good, you look totally out of it."

      "Just thinking some stuff over."
        I don't fill him in with all the details, I don't need to worry him anymore.

      "How about we find an empty room and talk it over, it's getting dark and we don't need to travel in the dark."

      "Ehh, I don't know. That's kinda dangerous, don't ya think?"

      "Come on now, you've got to quit shutting me out. I can only help you if you let me know what's wrong."

      "Why does everyone have to help me, I would love to be the one to help someone else for a change."

      "Y/N, you have helped other people, me, Minho, Jeongin. You fought that guy back there for me."

      "Yeah and in the end you still got hurt."

      "I just got a bit of rope burn, that has nothing to do with you okay?"
       He grips my shoulders and looks me straight in my eyes. I forget how warm other people are.
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      Tears silently fall down my cheeks, Felix just wraps his arms around me. My head buried in his chest, my face consumed in his pitch black hoodie. He quietly tells me how everything's going to be okay and how tomorrow we'll be out of here and I'll be back with the boys. But what happens after we get away from here? Where will we go, we have no money, no house, no ride, what are we going to do?

     Felix pulls away from me, he grasps my hand and walks me into an empty room.
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      "We'll stay here for tonight, we can't risk using our flashlights out there. We'll for sure get caught."

      "Yeah, I'm sorry for that little breakdown back there. I didn't mean to cause you any trouble."

      "No worries love, let's just focus on getting some sleep. We have a big day ahead of us."
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     We finally get comfortable, almost asleep. Until we hear dogs barking. They must be guard dogs. Damnit the worker ratted us out! They're probably looking for us.
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      "Felix! F-Felix? Hey, hey. Wake up!"
        I shake him vigorously. Trying to stay some what quiet. He's showing no response though. Damnit Felix please be okay.

      "F-Fee, come on man! Just wake up! Crap."
        I slide down the cold metal walls, trying to think of what to do, anything to do.
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      I try my best to lift him, somehow I mange to. I walk him over to the corner in attempt to keep him out of sight just incase someone was to walk in.
  
     Then I'm left in a cold, quiet room listening to my own breathing. I hear foot steps coming towards the door, they sound like boots. Scratch that there's two people. Lord this is exactly what I didn't want to happen! I warned him, I warned Felix. I told him staying here was a bad idea.

     After about 3 minutes the foot steps go silent. There's only a shadow at the door, who's it is I don't know. The dogs are quiet, my mind is a mess, playing out every scenario possible. The door opens in a shushed manner.
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     "What the hell M-

A/N- Hi! Sorry this took so long, I recently had a birthday and things have been kinda hectic so I'll be able to update sooner after Mays over. Anyway hope you enjoyed as always!! ❤️❤️

           ~yutouchingmysausage 🌵🌵